- Day Nine by squishy
18 y
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Blog: Juicing It Up
Today is a bad day. Depression has taken over my mind and body. My thoughts-I can't even describe because they don't exist. I want to cry for no reason and my body just wants to sleep.
It is not like depression has never been a part of my life. I've plenty of terrible bouts with it. Much of it I have always tried to hide even though many of times that has been impossible. I guess I always feel like it is no one else's problem but mine. My mom said that since I have been on juice that I seem so much happier. Today must be just an off day.
Today has also presented itself with plenty of urges to eat. Not only to eat but the feeling that I need to go find any and every food I can and binge eat. I am fighting them though. I know I can be strong. Part of me believes that by binge eating everything will be okay. I know that is something I have trained myself to believe. I have to be strong.
Typicaly sleeping helps me with depression. Not this time-it only made it worse.
Time will heal though. Tomorrow will be better. I guess this is just part of the procedure right?
I guess I will try to leave on a good note. Down to 217... 2 pound loss.
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- Depression Is Normal For Some by hopinso
18 y
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| I just wanted to let you know that depression when fasting, or doing any kind of cleanse is not that unusual. It has happened to me too. I guess I tend to be a depressive type anyway. Doctors put me on antidepressants twice for clinical depression, but I never want to use them again. When I did my first Master Cleanse fast I had a sense of joy and well being that was almost unknown for me. I began a second MC about six weeks later in hopes of recapturing that amazing feeling. Instead I became horribly depressed. I cried all the time, life did not seem worth living, if I had not already experienced deep depression and knew what it was, I might have been suicidal. Anyway those feelings lasted about 72 hours and were gone. My theory is that we can store toxic, negative emotions as biochemicals stored in our bowel, liver or fat. When we cleanse these toxic chemicals are released and we can experience the emotions without the causative issues. Be strong and do your best to ride it out. Just accept the depression as part of your cleansing process and know it does not reflect your current status. Breaking a fast and binge eating has always resulted in a sense of failure and more depression in my case, and might for you too. I know this is difficult, I've been through it, but you are remarkably strong and I'm sure you can ride it out. Prayers and blessings to you.
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- Re: Depression Is Normal For Some by squishy
18 y
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Thank you for your words of advice and knowledge. I've had depression since i was real young. It got really bad for some time but then about two years ago it calmed down. Eventually I turned to food. Then to binge eating which became a habit.
It is good to hear from someone who as experienced the detox effects. It makes you realize that if someone else can do this then I can do it too.
Thanks for all your help! Wish you well on your journey!
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- hoping for better days by ausjulie
18 y
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| im sorry your feeling so bad. i hope tommorrow is better for you. i wish you lots of happiness and sunshine
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