- Day 27 of my post Water Fast by Sacristia
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Blog: My Health Journey
December 21, 2010
It is the first day of Winter and my late Uncle Micheal's birthday, so I am going to try to make today a little special. I haven't figure out how yet, but I will figure something out.
Lammy (Lamareoux) pestered me this morning, smacking me with her little mitten paw. (which isn't fun, as it has a claw always extended so it can scratch me. Good thing she is always gentle when she smacks me) I first covered my face and then she started to pull at the covers so she would get underneath it. I then turned over and she followed me. When I decided that I was going to get up, she got really vocal with me and demanded me to pet and love on her. I know that she slept with me last night, but since I put my Bible on the nearby pillow, she laid down around my feet. I forgot how it was like to have a busybody pet waking me up. I kind of missed it. It kind of made me feel loved in a way that she was just awaiting for me to get up and pay attention to her.
I still miss Phil and PJ's presence in my life. I really miss hearing PJ getting ready for school and the even the sudden annoying slam of the front door, as he leaves for the bus. I guess I should focus on the positive things, like my mother said. I hate it when people tell me to be positive when I am hurting. If I could shut off the hurting, then I could easily be positive, couldn't I? I guess it is aggravating to hear how I should be positive, when I would be if I could at the moment. I guess I want my little time to grieve the whole relationship that I put some much into.
I am going to really work on reading my Bible tonight, as I carried it bedroom then to my living room last night and then again to my bedroom, as I was planning to read it before I fell asleep. I didn't open it. It sat on the pillow, where Lammy slept the night before. I guess I wasn't very dedicated to reading it, as I turned the light off and turned the TV/DVD on as I settled down in bed. I will try to developing a better routine before I go to bed, until I have a nice habit down. It is as if my subconscious is wanting to avoid opening my Bible. I know it would only be a good thing, but for some reason, I am still dancing around the idea of opening it up and reading from it, rather than just doing so.
I haven't tried out my Wii since I got my newer TV on Sunday. I think I am hesitant because Phil and PJ have a Mii (a saved character) on it and I will see it. I know that seeing it will upset me a bit. I am thinking about going out and renting a new game to jump start me playing with it again. I think it will help me keep “busy” during this time for me. I don't know. I will just have to see if I will or not.
I just realized that I will be starting my short Water fast in 4 days, so I have to start drinking more water then I have been. I don't want to shock my body on day One of my water fast, by drinking nothing but water, so I will try to drink at least 24 ounces today and a same tomorrow, and perhaps a little bit more tomorrow then that. I know that I will have to buy some more bottled water, as only have one left, but I do have a half gallon of Spring water left in the refrigerator, but I don't like drinking cold water a lot of the time. I am thinking about marking on my calendar about buying some veggies for my possible detox struggle around Day 10 so I will be able to juice a bit to help with it. I just read today that Orange juice helps slow down detoxification symptoms. I will have to do a bit more research on that to make sure that would be the best bet for me to try when it gets too hard for me.
I know that I mentioned some other blogs that I have looked at, especially the ones that only have one or two entries. I seriously wonder what those people are doing or what they did do, since they stopped blogging about their journey they were taking. I also wonder if what they were doing was healthy for them or it was a impatient goal and they just were not able to follow through with it. I guess I really wonder, because I am planning on starting a short water fast on December 26th, and even if I fail at doing it, I will still blog my failure, because just because it is a failure to start a water fast, it still is step in my walk in my journey to live healthier then I have in the past. I guess a failure can be a negative thing, but it also is stepping stone to a pathway to succeeding at something as well. Kind of like setting a form of traction, in order to get my footing to getting some where. If I want to climb up hill, I have to have some sort of traction or footing to start my climb. I like to think that it is something like that. Almost like the tread found on the bottom of my sneakers. Without them, I wouldn't be able to get the push to where I am going. Failure is a horrible thing to handle, but a person can always learn from it. I wonder if some of the people were successful, but they just were not in a routine of blogging everyday about it. I can honestly say that I was really horrible at doing that in the past, but now that I have gotten into a good habit of writing on my blog, I write in it several times a day and just post it once, once I done with a entry. Some days, the entries are shorter then others, but at least I am posting something, which is a good habit, as it sets in a routine.
I went to Family video to see what possible movies and Wii games they had. I could a game, but it was out, so I found another game that seemed like it might be fun to play. I was Mario's Winter Olympic games. It looked like it would be fun. I also rented “Unaccompanied Minors” which I have seen previews before but I have never watched. It was in the Christmas season movies. I plan on watching it tomorrow, as I only have it for a day. I have the game for 5 days so I can play it over the Christmas to keep my busy.
I ate my bean burger patty. I didn't eat it with bread, but I did eat it with some lettuce and tomato. There was something missing from it when I ate it. I smelled great while it was baking in the oven, but it definitely is missing something. Maybe a spice or maybe I need to try something other then rolled oats. Maybe I should try the breadcrumbs. When I told my friend, Angel, what I had for dinner and it was missing something, she suggested trying crackers. I think I will try some whole wheat crackers. I know that I kind of frown about using breadcrumbs, because the image of soggy breadcrumbs just turn me off, so that is why I don't use them. My mother always used crackers when making meatloaf, so that is what I use as well. My friend, Cecilia, asked how it tasted. I told her that it didn't taste bad at all, but it was missing something. I ate it kind of wrapped up in lettuce with a bit of tomato. Almost like a healthy burrito. Another thing when I went over to their house (Cecilia, is the mother and Angela is the daughter, who is a year older then me) they had a surprise for me. Two Ruby Red Grapefruits, a granny smith apple and a kiwi. They don't eat grapefruit and Angel didn't like green apples so they gave them to me. They thought me getting some fruit would put a smile on my face. Cecilia told me that she would rather give it to me, because she told me that it is amazing how much food goes bad because no one is eating it. I told her that I try very hard not to buy too much fresh stuff that I can eat in a couple days, because it can go bad quickly. She told me if I ever needed anything, I was welcome to come down here and ask for it. I told her that I shouldn't have that problem anymore since Phil and PJ are gone. It doesn't take much to feed me now that I am eating healthier. I should break out my receipts for October and maybe in September to see how many of them come from fast food/restaurants before I decided to take charge of my weight and my lifestyle.
I was planning on roasting a couple chestnuts last night, but when I got home from Cecilia's house, (just down the way from my home), I was too tired to want to eat something so late. It was after 9 p.m. and I just wanted to wind down, take a hot shower, relax and watch a movie. I will probably have roast some tomorrow.
I know that last night I can remember before I fell asleep was thinking about Phil, on how he was probably playing pool at the Tavern or enjoying sitting in his own house. I was wondering if I should wish him a “Merry Christmas” on the 25th and if I would get a response back. And would I ever see him again.
FOOD INTAKE:
BREAKFAST: (around 8:15 a.m.) ½ cup of bean stew (I ate the last of it, Yay! But I am still not bored with it)( 65 calories)
DRINK: 12 ounces of Oolong Tea (consumed over a 3 hour period)
SNACK: NONE I was hungry, but I didn't have time to peel an orange. I think I will start pre-peeling them earlier so I can eat them
LUNCH: (12:45 p.m.) One bean stuffed cabbage roll (55 calories) 1 cup of veggie soup (106.8 calories) 1 cup of broccoli florets (30 calories) TOTAL CALORIES: 191.8
DRINK: 18 ounces of Oolong Tea (consumed over 3 hour period)
SNACK: (around 3:30 p.m.) A medium Orange (62 calories)
DINNER: (6:30 around p.m.) One mixed bean patty (approximately 104 calories) {Ingredients of patty: 1 ¼ cup of mixed beans-140 calories; 1 egg-70 calories; ¼ rolled oats – 77 calories; ½ cup of onions/green pepper and red pepper - 25 calories. Total calories: 312 It made 3 patties making it about 104 calories per patty), A Three leaves of lettuce(3 calories) and a three slices of tomato ( 12 calories) 1 ½ cup of Fresh Express Spring Mix (15 calories) and 1 cup of streamed cabbage( 34 calories) TOTAL 168 calories
SNACK: NONE -I was too tired
TOTAL CALORIES FOR THE DAY: 471.8
EXERICISE: Walked 2.39 miles around home and work
WATER INTAKE: Less then 8 ounces
WEIGHT: 134 pounds
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- Re: Day 27 of my post Water Fast by Rainy.
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Failure is a horrible thing to handle, but a person can always learn from it.
Your blog is inspiring and I am learning from it. You are so right. We can all learn from our own failures as well as the failures of others. Maybe you will inspire me to start posting on my blog again. It does help me stay focused, however, with my limited time it is hard to keep it going for any length of time. Your blogging about your post fast has been especially helpful. I feel you are doing great on your post fast. Your eleven day fast was a great accomplishment as well. :) I feel good things are coming your way. :)
Thanks for sharing. : )
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- Re: Day 27 of my post Water Fast by Sacristia
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Hello Rainy,
Thank you for the compliments. I am glad that I am able to inspire you in some way. It is nice to know that I am doing something useful for someone. :o)
I definately learned alot of things as I have been writing. Somethings very obvious and other things are probably still smacking me in the face until I see them.
I know that I am learning alot of things from just blogging. I haven't really blogged much before, but I thought it might help me in the near future if I have any questions about my post water fast diet right now. I searched and searched and I couldn't find anything about people were dealing with it. So I decided to keep a detailed blog about mine for future references. One thing that it has taught me is commitment to follow through as well I think blogging really does give me piece of mind, as I am writing down things such as my feelings that I normally would keep bottled up to myself. You can say that blogging has for me in the two months almost has been like a pressure regulator in my life.
If you start blogging again, let me know so I can read yours too.
Merry Christmas my friend!
~Sacristia
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