in the bathroom with my As Bill Sees It book. Haven't really spoken to my sponsor in three weeks. She went on vacation for two and the last one I am forgetting to call. I called the night before last and left voice mail. What to do, what to do. I think get a local sponsor. I have a lot of work to do with relationships with women, that's for sure.
Still raw vegan. Man, did I have a craving last night. I felt it coming on when I refused to grab food before I left the house. I was all keyed up to make amends. So, I bought tofu, baby carrots, dried apples and drank water. Pretty sparse attempt at self-care, I'd say. In response to the craving I knawed on a raw ear of corn, ate a banana, ate some diced tofu, drank some water.
I'm on the other side of the Carrie Underwood remake of Randy Travis' song "I Told You So". When I was in Vegas, I used to sit at my desk and hear this song play and just cry. I knew my ex would just laugh at me if I ever asked him back. Here we are, he asked me back. I am stumped and numb.
Taking the next three weeks off from any interaction with him so that I may study for my August exam. Feels like the right thing to do.
Breakfast: tofu, strawberries, raw carrots, sunflower seeds. I'm out of food today and need to shop tonight.
I am going to a pot luck tonight and will have one small serving of something that is not raw/vegan. A planned snack off the chart. Let's see how this goes.
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