I frequently say my soul planned my misfortunes, so he could learn his lessons. I am seeking a more gentle way forward... more gentle lessons... I know he gave me a fuzzy brain... nothing like my mind on the other side...
I think it is mean to send souls into these pit-bull like bodies we have and expect them to act like show-dogs... but I do the best I can... I do like your way of saying that it is self imposed punishment... makes total sense... I would assume move beyond my eye for an eye programming but it is still buried deep inside my programming...