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this is GOOD!!!!
(Heart's Desire)
Relationship Insights. Powerful Maturation and Self Healing recorded here!!! Thank You, God!
Date: 7/5/2007 9:43:06 AM ( 17 y ago)
2:16 PM
July 5, 2007
Made some monumental
personal growth work today
thanks to my beloved Twin Soul/Bsst Friend.
We were together June 30-July 3.
Today is July 5. This Mercury Retrograde is about
Relationship inner work.
I am very pleased and grateful for the relationship
personal growth work I did today.
Thank you Twin Soul/Best Friend.
Thank you, Leslie, for taking the time
to do this Very Important Work!!!
Now Reread this...
Later...made a new writing
that goes with Love Cure #2,
"Because She is a Woman"
that will be a Ritual of Transiton.
Use some of the words from
"Prayers to Mend the Heart" book.
7:31 AM
july 5, 2007
Call this Good.
Relationship Insights and Self Healing.
i am being asked to Allow.
I am asked to Allow Unpredictability.
I am being asked to be O.K.
with the way it is.
This is how it is:
the One who I am most Vulnerable with,
is a Twin.
They to not behave as One Person.
One side of the Twin does not appear to
be in full awareness of the other.
Things are done and said in states of complete
Vulnerability that do not appear to be remembered
by the other side of the Twin within that same person.
This Other is my Twin Soul.
This Other is my Best Friend.
The Intimacy levels between us are closer and closer.
There are things being said in states of physical intimacy
that are frightening, perhaps, to the other side of the Twin inside herself.
She would never say these things in her normal states of consciousness.
There were things being said that are very challenging to me
when we are in these states of intense physical intimacy.
I have an Opportunity to do Extreme Healing because I have chosen
and continue to choose to be in this relationship.
YES.
I am constantly being asked to go beyond where I am afraid.
I am constantly being asked to go beyond where I am stuck.
I am constantly being asked to become more open and vulnerable
in this relationship.
This relationship in special moments of Intimacy
has both of us expressing the Deepest affection.
We both enter states of Love.
To experience my Twin Soul go into extreme Openingness like
this, challenges me to do the same.
I have never been with a woman who has opened so deeply
within herself. I have never been with a woman who can feel
so much, who enjoys pleasure so extremely.
I was given access to her body and pleasure zones
for a number of days, June 30 and July 1.
We used the giving and receiving of pleasure to do immense
self healing. We gave profound love to each other.
We connected and appreciated each other's bodies
profoundly. We expressed many kinds of emotions
from neediness to wholeness. She was in her power
many times.
She is immensely communicative in these intimate moments.
This is a rare and special healing experience.
She speaks out loud how she is feeling.
She tells me what she is experiencing in her body,
and is moment by moment telling me how what emotion
is coming up. There is little censorship.
She expresses immense Trust toward me.
To Receive this, is overwhelmingly Powerful.
We both have Trust issues when we are in normal consciousness.
She tells me I am a good man.
I know and feel she is a good woman.
She is highly attractive to me.
i am highly attractive to her.
[2:23 PM July 5
AMazing!!~!! There is a Dove of Love...
cooing as never before right outside my
Window as i am rereading this!!!!!
Nature and my energy is drawing this sign
of Self Healing!!!!!!]
Our bodies deeply can feel each other.
I allow the space for her to express neediness,
but I affirm in every opportunity her wholeness
that emcompasses in is much deeper than this neediness.
I am blessed beyond measure to be a man for this woman.
This is a witty, sexually alive,
fecund, eye appealing, luscious woman
with a body that completely draws me.
Just to recall this goodness, heals me in this
very moment.
To be a part of this, is profounding nurturing,
and to Allow and Receive a Gift.
The relationship is clearly expressed in
Robert Camp's "Love Card's."
That book totally pinpoints with accuracy
the internal map of our Soul Inspired and
Deeply Spiritually connected relatonship
that exits in timeless demensions.
I am blessed by the work I have done
to be a part of this.
It is a special gift from God.
In these intimate states we both know this
is a gift from god.
Here is Our Reading from Robert Camp's
Love Card book:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=1103&i=21
Then, July 2 came.
This, was a day of recovery between us.
I did a lot of resting. She did a lot of mental work.
I did some computer work, and wanting to respect
that we were in the same space, but each our own person.
The Evening:
We watched a movie.
I wanted to reconnect physically.
She was in a different space.
That night, she had many dreams.
She said I tossed a lot.
She moved to the couch to sleep.
She was there in the morning when I woke up.
That morning, I left.
i had visions to go home.
We talked before I left as she was also going
to a healer's appointment.
She was not in a mood to be touched the night before,
but she was not unkind at all as i prepared to leave.
She was not harsh as she can be when she makes
the switch from wanting to be close physically to not
wanting to be touched. Ten Brownie Points!!!!
I gave her support.
I once overheard a woman's group at a conference.
The teacher made a lasting impression on me.
I heard the Teacher say, "after physical intimacy,
a woman will needs to reintregrate with herself.
She will need Space to be alone."
This was one of the best transitions of our relationship
from being intimate to giving her space.
However, I left full and with lots more love to give.
I did not know what to do with all this Love
that Twin Soul/Best Friend had Allowed me to open up inside me.
i was thinking maybe I needed to make love to someone else as
well....
{Now I see...I need to give that Extra Love to me...
I may or may not...we may or may not have other Lovers...
but I do not want to take on another Love as an Excuse
that i am running away from my Personal Growth Work.
2:31 PM July 5 ]
This was one of the most intense physically intimate
times we have spent together.
I am still filled from it.
I have never been with a woman who has been so open
and taking me to her core so deeply.
I attribute this to Twin Soul/Best Friends deep personal growth work,
and integration of body with emotion, mind, and Soul.
I felt deeply challenged by her to come to the state
of Trust that she was expressiong toward me, and yet
to do this, I had to Trust that she would go easy on me
when she transitioned to needing her own space.
This always catches me offguard.
i let my guard down. I let her in.
This time she let me in deeper than ever.
I could not resist opening. She verbally encouraged
me to do that.
I asked her when we were in the Altered State of intimacy
to go easier on me when she transitioned out of it.
We talked about consciously closing down.
I see how that this consciously closing down, needs to happen
before She is closed down energetically.
When she is closed down, she is already in do not touch me mode.
i want this "do not touch me mode" to transform into a state of loving
self acceptance where both of us accept that Taking Space
following close physical intimacy
is totally natural and held in a positive regard.
She was beating herself up a little the morning we left...
asking outloud, how it was possible to go from one space
of intimacy to the other so abruptly.
I supported her in this, but it is still a shock to me
when she tells me she cannot remember what happened when
we are physically close.
I want to
be clear to Twin Soul/Best Friend that I am being responsible
for my own feelings.
I am asking myself to transform because I really love
this relationship and i love her very deeply.
I do not want to feel hurt or shocked when the
transition occurs from deep intimacy in the moment
to other states of consciousness.
I proclaim this for myself. I will transform.
I am big enough to have this totally healthy and deep
intense sexua| and intense healing physical intimacy
and then move into other states of consciousness
without where i can do other kinds of work without
being stuck in some kind of shock mode with the tranition
from physical to giving Space.
I intent to frame this in a positive regard.
I also know,
I am not here to change Twin Soul/Best Friend.
i am here to love her because i am loving myself.
I am expanding in my capacity to enter love and so is she.
I saw that very clearly.
She is more loving that ever.
She was more loving than ever even after she went
into "I do not feel like being touched."
As the Seven love cure Says:
"In the infinite wonder of the life of every woman,
is the moment to be celebrated that she takes Space."
This is a Special Gift from God being Offered
by god to me.
YES
YES
YES.
i am being asked to give up my childhood abandonment wound here.
This is not a woman who is leaving me.
This is a woman who is taking care of herself when she takes space.
YES.
YES
YES.
Leslie, accept this.
See this. Feel this. Know this.
This is the Growth we your Guides are
asking of you!!!
This is the Gift that Twin Soul/Best Friend is giving you.
Affirm this, Leslie.
You do love yourself.
You do not need Twin Soul/Best Friend
to fill a Space in you that feels lonely and afriad.
You can do that for yourself, dear one!!!
Enjoy fully, yes, this magficient, incredible woman.
Help her know that it is perfect that she does this.
She is being more whole as she transitions from one state
to the other.
She does not need to consciously remember every
movement, excitement, when she is Making Love.
She is in the Moment Making Love.
She is out of her Mind.
Allow this. Appreciate this, dear One.
You talked about making a Conscious transition
from one state to another.
Write this Poem Up!!!!
The Transition.
Never, be critical of her movement from one state to another.
Support her in this.
_____
FULL lOVE CARDS
READING
Queen of Diamonds
& Ace of Clubs
Who Queen of Diamonds
is with Ace of Clubs:
JUMS
"You are Jupiter to each other in the Spiritual Spread
Page 293
"You are Jupiter to each other in the Life Spread."
Twin Soul/Best Friend and I are Jupiter to each other in the Life Spread
1 -3 5
page 293
This connection is a strong bond that ads many blessings to your relationship, whether it is marriage, friendship, or business.
Though it is not strong on the attraction level,
it will contribute a lot to your overall compaibility
and joy in being together.
You both enjoy giving to each other and you share many of the same
philosophical beliefs and ideas.
You tend to have the same opionion about what is important in life,
especially on the spiritual level, or on the level of integrity
and honesty.
You are both there for each other
when you are needed and you have good advise
and othe things of value to offer when needed.
If you both keep your heart and mind open
to giving and receiving the many gifts you share, you both
benefit greatly.
This connection springs from a past life
in which the two of you shared some experience
in which you both developed some deep understanding about what is true
and untrue in life.
This could have been as fellow members of some religious
order or in some other kind of institution where philosophy
was one of the major focuses.
Now in this life, you tend to see things the same way
in the areas of right and wrong.
This is one of the most beneficial o the spiritual connections
that two partners can have.
It is a past life earned connection.
The connection runs deeper and have more meaning
than the same connection in the life spread.
it is a Juperterian connection,
one of the most important of the spiritual planets.
The Guru planet, the Lord of Wisdom and abundance.
Connection guarantees some sort of deep bond on the level of
your beliefs and philosophies.
If you access this and openly discuss your relationship
in light of this, you could find that there is much more meaning
for your being together than you first thought.
This presupposes that these things,
like life purpose and spirituality are important to you.
SARS
"You are Saturn to Them in the Spiritual Spread."
I am Saturn to Twin Soul/Best Friend in the Spiritual Spread.
Page 297
For whatever reason, you have been selected
to play the role of a teacher to your partner,
and they may or may not like it nor appreciate
the lessons that you have to share with them.
Even if you don't realize it, you are somewhat
hard on them, probably pointing out their weakness and showing
them how they can do 'better' or how they can become more
mature or responsible.
This can cuase them to see you as a problem and someone
to be avoided because few people enjoy criticism.
It is quite likely that the two of you have been together
before and that one of your roles in this lifetime is to return
to them something that they have given to you in a former existence.
however, the thing that is given is not always well received.
In this case, especially, your suggetions for their improvement
may not always be appreciated.
However, if your partner is able or willing to look at and accept
their own shortcomings, you can be a blessing in their life,
one that helps them to realizse their highest dreams and ambitions.
Affirmation for this connection"
I am my partner's teacher and guide and I use
this power with love and understanding.
-2 5 -4
JUR
You are Jupiter to them in the Life Spread
Page 291
You really like your partner and enjoy sharing abundance with them.
You either like to give them financial assistance, or
well intentioned guidance and advise.
This is a beneficial connection for marriage or business or both and promotes a relationship based on higher values and spiritual truths or philosophy.
connection works best if partner appreciates the things you are giving to them.
This connection works best if your partner appreciates the things you are given
to them.
Affirmation for this connection:
I am a blessing in the life
of my partner and i love to sharte my abundance
with them and give to her freely.
0 0 8
MAFS
"They are Mars to you in the Spiritual Spread."
I am Mars to Twin Soul/Best Friend in the Spiritual Spread.
Page 285
The two of you were probably,brothers, lovers or competitors in a past life, thus there is therefore there is a lot of passionate mars energy between you.
This manifests as either a lot of lust, anger, or both.
Do things together to channel this powerful physical energy and you will have less of the anger and competition part.
This Connection can produce either a powerful physical or sexua| attraction or powerful competitive and hostile feelings.
In some cases, you will have both.
Know that these feelings are the result of being together before in a similar role and that now you can channel the enormous energy stirred up by this relationship into positive channels for greater success and happiness.
NOTE:
In astrology there are aspects such as Mars in the 11th house, that indicate
people who were considered enemies in a former lifetime thatg we are drawn to be
with again to work out our differences.
Spiritual Spread mars relationships can act in the same way.
Anyone with whom you share this connection bould be an enemy from a past
life with whom you have unfinished business.
However, when two lovers come together with this connection,
there is usually some poast life attraction that never had the opportunity
to be fully expressed.
When two lovers come together with this connection, there is usually some
past life attraction thqt never had the opportunity to be fully expressed.
this can create a powerful attraction between two people along with the unconscious
desire to fulfill some desires tht were left imcomplete in a former life.
in these cases, the relationship represents a fulfillment of passionate energies
that can be quite enjoyable.
There are cases, though, where two lovers are drawn together who were also enemies
befroe. Thought the passion is very much present, there can also be considerable
resentment and competitive feelings that surface later in the relationship
as the real reason for their being together become realized and manifested.
Affirmation:
My partner excites me and stimulates me.
I can use the energy constructively and passionately to better my life.
Attraction: 9
Intensity: 8
Compatability:0
PLF
They are Pluto to you in the Life Spread.
I am Pluto to Twin Soul/Best Friend in the life spread.
Page 309
8 9 -5
There is something very challenging for you about your partner.
He causes you to make changes in your life and helps you to expand beyond present
capabilities or self imposed limits.
It is likely that the two of you have'battles of the wil'l at times.
The two of you may be vying for controlin the relationship
and this can get intense at times.
However, if handled with awareness,
this could be can be one of the most valuable relationships of your life.
It will transform you and help you reach
your highest potential while encouraging you to let go of emotional attachments
or negative habits that are holding you back.
To get the most out of this connection,
resiste the temptation to try and change or control your partner
and use this energy to change yourself.
That is what the relationship is meant to be for you-- a stimulus for change.
While not an easy relationship by most standards, its value to you could be enormous.
This connection is usually associated with strong sexua| attraction.
NOTES:
this Pluto Connection is related to Mars, but it is Mars
taken to a higher octive.
Instead of the lust and anger of mars,
we get the control and power complexes of Pluto.
As in the Mars connection, Pluto has a high level
of attraction and intensity.
ultimately, how this relationship is for you will depend
on your relationship with yourself.
The Pluto person reminds us of some qualities in ourselves what we have "contracted' to change in this lifetime.
If you are aware of your own faults and are able to accept them, the relationship will not seem too intense and challenging.
On a spiritual and personal development level, this can be one of the most important and valuabel relationships of your life.
This connection has a negative 5 in compatability because few people can live with this kind of intensity for long periods of time.
Of course, other more harmonious connections can help to offset this intensity and help the two coexist in agreement.
Affirmations for this Connection:
My partner's presence reminds me of those things
that I most desire, and things that i want to change about myself.
Attraction; 8
intensity: 9
Compatibility: -5
____
TWIN SOUL/ BEST FRIEND
TO ME:
JUMS
"You are Jupiter to each other in the Life Spread."
Twin Soul/Best Friend and I are Jupiter to each other in the Life Spread
1 -3 5
page 293
This connection is a strong bond that ads many blessings to your relationship, whether it is marriage, friendship, or business.
Though it is not strong on the attraction level,
it will contribute a lot to your overall compaibility
and joy in being together.
You both enjoy giving to each other and you share many of the same
philosophical beliefs and ideas.
You tend to have the same opionion about what is important in life,
especially on the spiritual level, or on the level of integrity
and honesty.
You are both there for each other
when you are needed and you have good advise
and othe things of value to offer when needed.
If you both keep your heart and mind open
to giving and receiving the many gifts you share, you both
benefit greatly.
This connection springs from a past life
in which the two of you shared some experience
in which you both developed some deep understanding about what is true
and untrue in life.
This could have been as fellow members of some religious
order or in some other kind of institution where philosophy
was one of the major focuses.
Now in this life, you tend to see things the same way
in the areas of right and wrong.
This is one of the most beneficial o the spiritual connections
that two partners can have.
It is a past life earned connection.
The connection runs deeper and have more meaning
than the same connection in the life spread.
it is a juperterian connection,
one of the most important of the spiritual planets.
The Guru planet, the Lord of Wisdom and abundance.
Connection guarantees some sort of deep bond on the level of
your beliefs and philosophies.
If you access this and openly discuss your relationship
in light of this, you could find that there is much more meaning
for your being together than you first thought.
This presupposes that these things,
like life purpose and spirituality are important to you.
JUF
Twin Soul/Best Friend is Jupiter to me in the Life Spread.
"They are Jupiter to you in the Life Spread."
Page 290
Your partner usually has a desire to give things to you
and basically is encouraged to help and protect you.
Great connection for marriage or friendship
as it promotes giving and receiving between the two of you.
Allow yourself to receive to get the highest
and most rewards from this relationship.
Also remember to appreciate what you are receiving
if you are to have this relationship continue to be a blessing in your life.
NOTES:
This connection adds a lot to the ability
of two people to co-exist in a harmonious
fashion and thus, a high rating in the compatibility area.
does nothing to attract
two people together. if connections are predominantly Jupeterian,
you probably
won't have much of a desire to be together.
0 0 8
This connection is a blessing to any relationship
and will help counteract other connections thaqt may take away from
the overall compatibility or harmony.
MARS
"You are Mars to them in the Spiritual Spread."
I am Mars to Twin Soul/Best Friend in the Spiritual Spread.
P 287
Your partner either has a strong sexua| attraction for you
or is highly irritated by you.
You stimulate them in a strong way which can help them start things
and engage in physical activities.
This connection is great for sex, for exercise or
for working together but if the two of you just sit around the house
you will likely get into disagreements and arguments.
Keep moving and find positive expressions
for the powerful energy that you stir up in each other
and you will be making the most of this important connection.
This is also a good connection for being
in business as a partnership. This connection is a carry over from a past life
relationship in which the two of you were either lovers, borthers, competitors
or enemies.
Mars relationships neither add to nor subtract from the Compatibility of a relationship since the way it affects the relationship is so stongly dependent
on how the energies are used. If used onstructively, this connection could actually
add to the Compatibiltiy. If used negatively and allowed
to channel into anger and agression,
this connection could be the biggest problem the exists between
the two partners.
Affirmation for this Connection:
i excite and sometimes aggravate my partner.
We enjoy doing things together and use our intesne energy
constructively.
8 8 0
NOTES:
Read the Notes under the "MAFS" connection to get more insight
into this connection.
much of what was written there applies except that the roles are reversed,
in this case you are the one who is either a stimulation or irritation
to your partner. However, all that is said about the past life connections
applies here.
from MAFS, Notes, Page 286:
When two lovers come together with this connection, there is usually some
past life attraction thqt never had the opportunity to be fully expressed.
this can create a powerful attraction between two people along with the unconscious
desire to fulfill some desires tht were left imcomplete in a former life.
in these cases, the relationship represents a fulfillment of passionate energies
that can be quite enjoyable.
Affirmation:
My partner excites me and stimulates me.
I can use this energy constructively and passionately to better my life.
SAFS
'They are Saturn to You in the Spiritual Spread."
Twin Soul/Best Friend is Saturn to me in the Spiritual spread.
Page 296
your partner is in your life to settle a past life debt with you.
In settling this debt, they may do or say things
that seem harsh, or critical, and unloving.
You may or may not resent this.
In truth, she is a teacher for you with many valuable things
to share to help you become more mature, responsible, and successful.
However, this kind of relationship is very challenging,
takes utmost in patience and self honesty to handle in a positive way.
For you, this may seem too difficult to accomplish adn you may find
that you can succomb to seeing it as troublesome
instead of the blessing that it has the potential to be.
This is one of the one of the most potent of the Karmic relationships,
this means that it is likely major impact
on your life. that its importance cannot be underestimated
in terms of how much of an ultimate blessing it can be for you.
However, as in all Saturn relationships, a constructive attitude,
open to seeing your faults is a requirement to access the blessing.
NOTES:
When someone is sature to us, they can say "You should do this."
or "You Should do that."
This is much the samed as a father instructs
his son or daughter.
Indeed, Saturn is known as the great father,
however, the recipient isn't generally receptive
to them.
AFFIRMATION for this Connection:
I chose my partner to help me grow and become
more mature and responsible. I accept them as my teacher and guide.
-5 9 -9
PLR
I am Pluto to my Twin Soul/Best Friend
"You are pluto to them in the Life Spread.'
page 310
You represent a major challenge for your partner.
You are someone who both challenges and transforms her.
you have a powerful effect on your partner causing intense inner
feelings to come up.
This may be the cause of the battle of wills
or power struggle that you experience at times in this relationship.
You represent on deep level, qualities or things that your partner
wants for themselves.
To acquire these things, he or she must make large scale changes within themselves.
For this reason, they may not always enjoy your presence in their
life though they may feel compelled to contront the issues that you bring
up in them.
There is an important reason for you to be in your partner's life.
They have either consiciously or unconsciously chosen you to help them grow as a person.
For this reason, You may be the most important relationship of their life.
However, this depends entirely on their level of
of self acceptance and how aware they are for the reasons of the intense feelings
and experiences that you bring up in their life.
AFFIRMATION.
My partner chose me to help develop
important aspects of their personality.
i understand the powerful effect i have on them.
4 5 -3
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