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A Return to Paris...City of Love (and lots of motor scooters)
(Uncovering The Starchild Within)
A Return to Paris...City of Love (and lots of motor scooters) by Ren .....
sunday stuff
Date: 3/26/2006 8:59:34 AM ( 18 y ago)
The first time I went to Paris, I was really entranced by the place. My mom wasn't so impressed at first because she said it reminded her of Manhattan but a little dirtier. However, once we were on the Champs Elysee, boy did she ever forget about our grimy hotel *LOL* Not that the hotel itself was grimy but it wasn't in a very posh part of Paris and as such was a bit dirtier but it was okay. I didn't mind. We didn't have as good a time as we could have. We were with some people who had a negative attitude and we were left behind on the train. I vowed that I'd go back to Paris with my mother. Here it is now...my fiance and I are going to Paris for two weeks. I thought we'd not make it and we were ready to go to Woodstock for ten days. I didn't think I'd return for a long time. I'm beyond words really and I'm aware this is just babble. It's two months till my wedding. I'm going through the range of emotions people.
Yesterday I mailed wedding invitations to my fiance's family and friends. I thought that would knock me out of my procrastination and cheer me up. It had the opposite effect. Couped this with the fat feeling I've been having. I've not gained weight. I've gained back all the water weight I lost from fasting and bikram yoga and I'm back to 156 pounds BUT I've NOT GAINED. So why was I feeling so fat and disgusting yesterday and woke up feeling that way today? It's emotions. It could be that I'm ovulating but no I don't think so. I was in a funk all afternoon and so was my fiance. We're so linked. Now I'm feeling a little better. Still drinking Starbucks but no more scones. I found out this morning that scones are FIVE HUNDRED CALORIES.
I found out from my mother that someone may be buying my Lladro mermaid statuette. I put it on there just for fun. It's $295 and I didn't think anyone would consider buying it but here it is:
Today is going to be a very happy, productive day for me. I've been watching What the Bleep DVD a lot and whenever I do the 'create my day' exercise, I have a very good day. I know that is a very important time for me. The self saboteur within wants to destroy my happiness and health. I know that I'm in a fight and my mind is playing games. I must fight for myself.
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