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Fighting and Depression
(Uncovering The Starchild Within)
some depressing news
Date: 1/22/2006 9:26:15 PM ( 18 y ago)
I had an exchange of words with my fiance and now we are not speaking. I have work tomorrow and am truly depressed. I also didn't eat well today as it is and just made an omlet for myelf. Yes I know. It's nothing something that I should have but eating it made me feel good...for all but five seconds. I hate going to work depressed. I hope that I will feel better in the morning. I hope that I won't need coffee to keep me from flying off the handle. I wish I could say that my first instinct is to drink some juice or wheatgrass but right now all I have is a visual of a Starbucks buffet.
Right now I'd love to say that being single is way better because you don't have to fight with someone then get depressed. However, my life sucked ass when I was single. I just don't understand him sometimes. I don't get the whole beer drinking at football games thing as it's just not something I've been around. He's an emotional person and so am I. I'm just crossing my fingers that we we really are soul mates and this thing really happens. I don't think screaming that I want to call off this wedding (and have my mom lose two thousand dollars in deposits not to mention bridesmaids dresses) would solve anything. I can't lie though. It's making me feel pretty good right now. Why is that? Why is thinking of calling off my wedding making me feel better when I know that it's not the right choice.
Oh well. Nice way to start the new week :(
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