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Bumping down the rabbit hole towards Zion (or the thousand petal lotus)
(Uncovering The Starchild Within)

some notes

Date:   11/13/2005 4:13:38 PM ( 19 y ago)

When we set out to discover our authenic selves, it's not always a pleasant journey. I set out to discover the center of my true self where the 'thousand petal lotus' resides. I have a lotus plant in my pond. It's a little runt of a plant because there's no dirt and mud for it dig itself in. Lotus plants grow deep down in the mud and muck of a pond. I also notice that my lotus plant doesn't like being too close to the waterfall. Hmmmm...this is why I think gardening is such a spiritually intense activity. Anyway, here's a link so you can understand my babble http://www.schooloftheseasons.com/flowers/lotus.html

I love my mom but she can be negative. I absorb the negavity and most always turn on myself and then resond to her nastily. I don't have a lot of time to be with her. The wedding is eight months away and I want to spend time growing in love not fighting with my mom. I didn't slip as bad I could have this weekend in terms of food and emotions.

I've been outlining my goals on 43things.com but here are some very important ones for me:

fasting one day
exercise four times
pray the rosary
meditate

I list them in that order because the food and exercise put me in a very spiritual mood. Sunday Nov 20th I would have gone around the sun 32 times :-)

 

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