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Weeding My Room
Looking at the Dark Side of my Harvest
during these days of the Harvest Holiday
called Shavuot. An explanation of the
Kabbalistic Flow right now. A resolve
to take action.
Date: 5/29/2009 9:41:04 AM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 2126 times
7:02 AM
May 29, 09
Today is the First Day of Shavuot.
Shavuot, in the perspective of the
Kabbalistic Meditations I have been doing
for 49 Days, is the Harvest Time.
Shavuot lasts two days.
I need to check that.
I use a book called
A JOURNEY OF AWAKENING
that has daily meditations
for each day that acts as a
healer for the widespread
state of fragmentation
that pervades our world right now.
In the Kabbalistic Map of Consciousness,
there are Four Worlds.
The Innermost World is where Creation comes from.
The Outer World is this 3D World,
Ground Zero.
It is in Ground Zero where we see our results.
I have a lot of expertise in the Inner Worlds.
I developed this because of the physical limitations
I feel in this physical body.
I have had limits in my range of motion
for most of my adult life. Increasingly, I have
limits in my ability to feel to move and take trips
because of persistent diarrhea. It has been going
on since before the beginning of last Fall.
The diarrhea is likely part of my AS pattern
from a Western Perspective. From a TCM perspective,
the diarrhea is likely a by-product of the way I live.
How I live is a result of the things that possess me.
I am a driven person. I very much want things,
Some have a byproduct of being good for our planet.
I am dedicated to serve a healthy earth and a healthy people.
This is outer work of what I want to do in the world.
This Summer I need to address the inner part of
my outer work. I am talking about the way things
are showing up in the physical world,
in the World of Assiyah.
"Here Malchut--the Kingdom of Kingship--
manifest Reality--receives the flow from the
entire Tree, "so each sefirah is, in fact, reflected
in Malchut. In this world, all the wonders of the Unierse
are Hidden.
In my photography, and in our Garden, I am able to see
the wonders of all these worlds, and I can capture many
times the vital forces.
I am also looking at and feeling the Dark Side of Malchut
the past two days.
I realize that I am now harboring a belief system
that I cannot heal my diarrhea.
This is a dangerous place to be.
Yesterday I was hungry and grabbed a leftover
piece of Sheppards Pie on the way out to do an errand.
I did not eat it in an balanced way as a balanced meal.
I was on the run. I am frequently on the run.
I believe this is what they call Time Debting.
Time Debting is when you do not leave time for
Vital Functions, such as including in each day time
to feed yourself in a way that can bring health.
When I throw in the towel on something,
that becomes suicidal.
We can all ask thos question
right now, during this time of Shavuot,
the harvest time.
Do your Practices of Living and
Your Daily Disciplines lead you to more
health or depletion of your Vitality???
I am also looking at my room and this property.
My room needs to be weeded,
extremely weeded.
My friend WILLIAM SPEAR talks about
flow of energy a lot in his work
on Vital Design.
Flow of Energy is called Feng Shui
on one Map of Consciousness.
Flow of Energy can also be called Chi.
On the Kabbalistic Map, the flow
is seen in terms of of the movement
of the Sefirah--Life Forces--or Angels.
This is a model that works with connection,
and the relationship between the parts
and the whole.
It is good to be looking at this today.
I do not have a community to enjoy the
Shavuot with here in the physical today.
So I am writing to you as my witness.
What have I harvested this year?
I have had some incredible bullseyes
and fulfilling experiences.
I have experiences some successes
that I have never had before in my life.
I am working with some real sponsors.
I am learning how to do this.
I can do more of this and increase
the flow of energy into my life.
The flow can also show up in the form
of money or people who want to help.
There are starting to be some young people
who want to help.
I turned one of them away today.
I need to clarify with them our agreement.
I will call them back.
I have massive weeding I need to do in my room.
I started with one shelf yesterday.
We are also in Mercury Retrograde.
That is a Gift. Mercury Retrograde is
an energetic relationship. This year, four times
a year, for three weeks each time, there are others
rules that apply.
During Mercury Retrograde, we can be more inward
and take time to catch up with ourselves.
During Mercury Retrograde, we can complete
on all things we have initiated.
O.K., it is 7:30 AM
on Shavuot Day.
I have about 45 minutes to work now.
Then I am talking the EG Mobile into to see
Mike at MIKES FOREIGN AUTO SERVICE.
I am concerned about a yellow light that
is persistent.
Malchut deals with the lower spine
and feet.
I had my acupuncturist team treat this
on Wednesday.
I put a lot of energy aimed at getting
an article into the Pacific Symposium
Newspaper. My first response from
LAURI HOWELL, in charge of PR, was
not favorable. There are too many articles
already. She cannot promise.
I will clear more space today for more
Good to come into my life.
I want to recommit to eating well.
I want to recommit to taking on the more
difficult things in my life.
I am looking at the Dark Side of my Harvest.
I want to create some movement here
where i live, in my physical world.
This summer is the season of Clean Up.
It is the season for me of The Great Earth Clean Up.
Thanks for listening.
I send you strength to look at
what you are harvesting now.
11:10 AM
Got the EG Mobile into Mike's.
Will need a new regulator and generator.
Of course, I am depleted,
and the EG Mobile is in sympathetic response to me.
This often happens this way.
it is Medal, and responds to my energy field.
Not sure it will be done today.
I may need a ride up to Encinitas tomorrow
for the Shavuot Service at 10 AM
Eating Rice with diatomateous Earth
for breakfast.
Need to put out some feelers for a ride tomorrow
to that service.
Maybe Matthew?
Maybe Rhonda?
Called Tiffany. Left a message
RE; Strategy for article I wrote.
Deal with it on Monday.
FOCUS on weeding now, please Leslie.
There is healing in that for you.
Rhonda call?
O.K.
11:29 AM
Send a couple photos to REGINA for cover
choices...cactus..
left messages with Rhonda for ride.
Fotimah will take me...if I need the ride.
That would be something.
11:30 AM
Bed cleanup now..
11:52 AM
Listening to ESOT Tape on life of Jesus...
also
Camera...$374.00??
Amazon
fix c5050?
yes!!
They have a used shutter release...
$50.00 will mark it down because it is used...
May be around $100.00
cleanu=ing progress?
12:05 PM
one notebook plastic...
names to imput...not now...please..
12:33 PM
Bored...lonely...want to reach out to someone...
head tired...
12:51 PM
throwing out some things from Passover Village,
Would be great if I had this map on pdf online.
throw out...reprint next year. Waste of energy.
can I save this till next year...???
What is going on here???
Why down...???
What am I doing with my energy longrange?
Why this harvest???
living here the way it is is not bringing happiness, much...
1:56 PM
Up from a nap.
Cheryl called back.
She will help scan in for me some archives.
I need to move on getting that scanning next week,
or seeing how to connect the new one in the basement.
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