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Making Myself Sick
Got up with some Revelations and Looking to Make
some New Decisions. What is Soul Growth? How am I making
myself sick now?
Date: 10/24/2008 7:10:55 AM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 1296 times
October 24, 08
Had an impactful event happen yesterday.
I will write abour it soon.
It has brought some good Growth material to the Surface.
There are another three things
I want to write about.
1. The first is Making Myself Sick.
2. The Second is Deciding I do not want to do this anymore.
3. The Third is my Obligation to the Work of my Life Thus far.
4. The Fourth is about an Experience I want to have at the Upcoming
Pacific Symposium with Artwork and Receiving Funds for the work I
want to do.
5. I also want to do some writing about long about the Mess I continue
to find myself in, in my room, and how I am going to outgrow this Mess.
Let me take on #1 first.
I know it is a taboo subject for some of us. How we get sick.
I have been creating sickness in my own life most of my life.
It has almost been my profession.
From a Soul level point of view, I take responsibility.
I believe I have lived other lives. I believe I have been a healer
many times. I believe I was born this life to heal in a different way,
to heal from being the Wounded Healer, a person who demonstrates
healing through writing about healing from the inside.
The astrology chart a person has from an Essene point of view
is chosen by them.
It is like the Soul that stands with God in Perfection, decides what Growing
Pattern to take on here on Earth to fulfill other Soul Growth.
The Soul is the individuality we are in God.
The Soul, that is perfect, is born here to shine its light in a particular arena
of activity for the purpose of bringing more soul present in that arena.
The Essene Teaching goes, better to shine a single candle in the dark
that curse the darkness.
The Soul becomes a Great Soul through this Activity of Great Service.
Soul is now missing from this world.
It is sadly missing from this world.
Here is one reason:
The Soul and the Earth are Soilmates.
There needs to be a necessary and purposeful relationship between
The Soul and the Soil for the Soul to shine here.
That is where Whole, Pure and Natural Foods come in.
There is a Pattern of Wholeness that draws the Soul present.
If we have a Technology of farming that promotes ignorance,
or darkness, or fragmentation, we end up with little opportunity
for increasing Awareness.
Dr. Bernard Jensen identified the earth as an intended Wise Domain.
He becomes that through individuals living out their in Wisdom.
Wisdom is the application of Soul inspired Knowledge to Experience.
Here is an example of what I am talking about.
That the election, for example.
The reason we have the Electoral College was because
if I am not mistaken, the Founders of that system believed
people were not smart enougn to have their vote count.
They basically accepted that most of us never have had a chance
to become wise enough to vote wisely.
I would say, the situation has only gotten worse.
Most elections today are manipulated.
There is little Truth in them from a perspective of our Soul Contract
to do what we can to create this world as a Garden of Eden,
i.e, The Enchanted Garden.
Most of what we read, and much of what determines are personal vote,
is manipulated.
John Vasconcellos, a friend, has created the Politics of Trust.
How many of us today really can trust in the Political System?
It has very little Conscious Soul about it.
Make to point #1, Making Myself Sick.
I am clear that the way I have been living is Making myself sick.
Sometimes I can feel the difference when my Soul is in the Driver Seat of my Life.
It happens at times at the Pacific Symposium. The Factors are Right.
Things fall into place. A Sacred Space is Created and I, The Mighty I each person can become,
steps into that Sacred Space.
Down at the Pacific Symposium, we create a Sacred Space
where Healing can take place. People are surrounded by Whole, Pure, and Natural
things and Art that expresses this.
People come to an environment of a Conference, and then as if by chance,
step into a Conscious Space where we each have the opportunity to be
SEEDING OUR DREAMS.
That is Enchanted Garden Altar is a place where you,
the attendee, or you the person reading these words, can
Plant Your Dream with living Seeds.
This is done by entering the Enchanted Garden Installation
and then taking time to become one with Nature around you,
and then write out your dream.
You Literally Plant Your Dream.
You are asked to take home some seeds as well.
You literally grow your dream through Plant Parenthood.
You can look that up...google it...Plant Parenthood Your Enchanted Gardener.
I am sure I have written about that.
Again, back to point #1.
I have been making myself sick during the last six months.
The Result. I am bottoming out.
I am using up another Rainforest of Toilet Paper.
I am on the toilet as much the last month
as I have been self expressing by Soul Nature.
I have been feeling High Stress about living here.
I have felt inadequate to Rise Up and declare my Truth
about how I am living here and with whom.
I live with more people than most here at the
Enchanted Garden Intentional Community.
The Intentional has been planted here,
but that is the Crack. I do not see myself fulfilling the Mission
and the Purpose of late.
Perhaps, I am being hard on myself.
I get yes, I am being hard on myself.
That is what happens when the Soul is not in the Drivers Seat of my Life
and speaking through me in my daily life.
(To be Continued...)
5:02 AM
RELATED;
There is a camera I want to buy that at saw at the BEA...
It is a Video Camera that will allow me to Record better what I see...
This History of Peace on Earth Deserves such a Camera.
I am going to write a letter to the man who was selling the Camera.
What is my Obligation to my Life's Work so Far?
I want a professional Scanner.
I deserve to give myself time to either document
the writings and works and events that I have seen
and then toss the materials, or put some of them
in the hands where these materials belong.
Conflict: Do I need to do this?
Have you any idea how much time you have
already given to this this summer?
Do you want to be doing this until Spring?
Is it worth the time?
Other Voice: Decide what you will complete
during the next decade.
Toss the rest. Continue to Cull.
Enjoy the process.
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