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My Dinner With "Boris Karloff"
"Talk therapy" with my father - being that I was Designed and conditioned to listen!
Date: 5/14/2008 2:45:19 AM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 2528 times Truth-telling has truly become a way of life for me and something I see reflected in my primary relationships. I happen to be visiting with my folks now and both of them have individually expressed their own loyalty to truth-telling. My father speaks to this in terms of his allegiance to "The Four Agreements" namely "Be impeccable with your word".
My father has been opening up to me more and more over the four and a half weeks that I have been visiting (with them both) so far. Several times he has indicated that he is telling me something he has never told any one else before. He has also said that he is getting more out of communicating with me than he is from speaking to a psychiatrist. At first I thought I was playing the role of a priest. Occasionally I wish I had a tape recorder going to capture the exact way he tells some of his stories. They are rather fascinating. Something on the order of "My Dinner with Andre" but more like "My dinner with Boris Karloff". I feel many of these sessions could be transcribed into scripts for some kind of a production. I don't yet have any idea of what kind of production that would be! There would have to be some kind of visual scenes accompanying his story-telling so that the avalanche of his spoken words might make up a rough-rambling, cross-country/cross-generational, cross-cultural (and occasionally cross-dressing) tour of epic proportions! For some of you who are astrologically inclined: my father is a classic Gemini and compulsive talker. He can talk non-stop for three hours! (Longer than any full-length movie!) And in the destiny card system he has "the Messenger" card. If I were ever serious about wanting to record him I would need a powerful interviewer involved (preferably female) who could masterfully pace the conversation in such a way that there could be balanced "breathing" spaces so that the finished production could be bearable for the average listener!
It has taken me nearly all of my life (including all my commitments to personal growth) to finally get to the point where I can pretty much let him roll non-stop! But when he talks about morticians who manipulate the breasts of female corpses who when caught in the act then say they are only "working in the embalming fluids" I can only begin to wonder why I never hear anyone else ever telling stories like this. And he always says he is telling the truth with no %¤#&!§-! (A word that I used beginning with the letter "b" and ending with the letter "t" was censored by CureZone.)
When I retired last night I sat on the side of my bed and emoted tears of something, I don't know what exactly. So much I never fully knew before about my father that suddenly all made some immediate sense. It seems to me that his fears were psychologically dis-empowering for him at the time. That's understandable to me. It's also understandable that he kept all that a secret from his children. And later how he could sign himself into to psychiatric facilities on several occasions. All of which seems to answer some of why I was attracted to colorful human expressions during my late teens. I may have been giving myself a certain education on the human experience; one that couldn't be taught to me in school and yet something I needed to know to understand (to the extent that I could at the time) regarding my father's path.
"The Secret Language of Destiny" gives a tremendous insight to the path my father has been traveling especially through the "core lesson" and "pitfalls". His destiny path is called: "The Way of Liberation". Knowing my father from that perspective has really helped me to see him with a spirit of empathetic understanding. That makes all the difference to me!
All Grateful I Am!
Chef Jem
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January 10, 2017 -
Wowie, it's going on nine years since that rather miraculous healing/transformative time that I had shared with Papa John(PJ) - before, during and after his second heart surgery!
I made mention of his "verbosity" (aka compulsive talk) and only a moment ago have I seen all the more reason for that. I knew he was a Gemini baby and then "Dragon-born" on top of that however I only now discovered that his Lunar North Node as well as his natal Mercury where both in Gemini as well! Maybe now those of you who understand the astrological language of light can get a glimpse of how I can easily name this: "compulsive talk".
I did my very best to accept this just the way it was however it still was challenging for me. Fortunately I do not have feelings of remorse or regret. And whatever unfulfilled longing/s I had for an even closer relationship while he was "in the flesh" I have surrendered to my Higher Self.
Any time I think of the three immediate family members who have crossed over I offer the thoughts to the Divine. My younger sister especially requested that all of us not feel sadness about her departure as she would be in heaven with her recently departed little girl who didn't recover from a second heart surgery due to a stunt that was too larger for her. (Doctors were thinking that a larger stunt would delay the inevitable future replacement.) I also accepted that my other sister did not want to go through yet another ordeal with cancer treatments after having fought cancer the medical way twice before. And finally I accepted that my father didn't have the close loving relations here on earth to keep him here after my sister had passed the month before. He also wanted to join his family of origin on the other side.
All I want is peace. All I want for family and all my relations is peace.
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March 5, 2017 -
Interesting reading PJ's Incarnation Cross of Duality now (in the "Incarnation Crosses by Profile") under his 6/2 Profile.
And I also should add that he had a Defined Throat Center with five Throat Gates Defined!
Gate 8: "Holding Together" with Personality Venus Line 1,
Gate 12: "Standstill" with Personality Mercury Line 5,
Gate 16: "Enthusiasm" with Personality North Node Line 5,
Gate 20: "Contemplation" with Personality Sun Line 6,
and Gate 35: "Progress" with Design North Node Line 4
He had a lot to talk about!
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