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of love and other demons......yet so short of explaining it. Part I
18 y
Whend we thing we're beyond love........
So there was that time..... there definitively was that time.. when the fairy tales seemed no short of been the future
I miss that..
Why is that fading away? How can that happen even though I seem to be stuck in the stage where I should still long for that?
Why do I miss it? How? When?
Just...... what happend, what is happening? visit the page Apologies? And more 18 y
There's catharsis, there's reality, and then there's hope
Before anything else, I need to clarify that the reason I decided to blog is because writing is the best cathartic method I know.
The way I spill my thoughts onto the paper is, a lot of times, crude. Sometimes it helps to let out the raw emotions and feelings. If anybody reads this, you should know that I don’t feel compelled to disguise or euphemize what I’m feeling. I need to call it by its name, and describe it as it is, in order to understand it, process it, and if it’s necessary refrain it.
Yes, I did feel like dying last night, I might have even fantasized about it. But I’ve bee ... read more Blow the candle out 18 y
I might die
a couple of pills washed down with some alcohol
I have no idea if I’ll wake up tomorrow
if I do.... then I’ll go see my psychiatrist, as I already have an appointment
I’ll go to school
and start over
I wonder.... if tomorrow will come
I don’t know if I’m afraid... I just wanted to not be here for the rest of the night
I don’t think I will die... I’ll probably just reach a new low
one part of my brain.. hurts right now. It’s physical pain, not the ghost pain that drives me to drink. It’s physical, as if somebody had forced his hand inside my skull and were squeezing my brain...press ... read more |