Man, good for you for trying to do this on your own. I have a friend that just went through AA in NC and she is nearly 120 sober. Still can't believe it. I have another friend in TN that is battling her addiction to pain pills and just can't work the AA thing and just can't motivate herself to give it up now. So I commend you for making that commitment! I can't say I suffer the same problem as I just don't think I have the addiction. But in the past, I have certainly struggled with keeping my drinking in control after making too many mistakes. My last mistake right after my 36th birthday a few months ago. Right now I think I've finally mastered my madness thanks to Curezone cleanses and wake up calls. Anyway...keep on brother. Send an email anytime if you need to. Keep up the good work!