Been like this for a little over a year- It is one of the big transition lessons and I am strong enough to still try to determine (in the head) what I think the best "course" is and Law/God is showing me another way- Sometimes I like to take control again-but it just turns out worse every episode-I am well loved none of my inharmony works at all anymore-
And the one I have produced she is 31 and still at the top of her control game-It worked for me then also-age 40 it cashed in- but she has a different life and times-the wedding resembles the one you wrote about-
Ya know I amstarting to be slightly concerned that someone can open up an online accoutn with my checkbook since they have all the numbers and my name and address on the checks-but I do feel that it is coming back safely-torn again!