I was gone for the weekend, I come back and such a turmoil here.. I do have to admit I was surprised. Isabella, while fasting lot of our emotional issues open up and we get very vulnerable, it's a rather critical period and I completely understand how fragile and low you may feel at times. However I agree with lilly1 - if your main reasons were feeling "not good for your bf", you aren't the one to make this decision on your own.

I am so glad to hear you have decided to make appropriate steps to let yourself being helped in this delicate phase of your life, I believe that we are simply incapable of always seeing the whole picture since we are inside and it takes a look from the outside - from an uninvolved person or at least somebody not so deeply in. I wish you all the luck possible! I still think that a lot of all this is caused by the fast and by cleaning your mind and soul as well as your body - it can be a very painful and confusing process. Please, hold on, you will make it through and emerge stronger and healthier in and out!

Lots of love

Vanda