Date:   9/20/2007 6:21:09 PM ( 17 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=987357

Hi Guys! These words are from yesterday afternoon, I think they are relevant enough to be logged in.

Getting started this morning was the ultimate challenge but I HAD to get ready and go to hospital. I'm going through a set of mandatory appointments before to get started on monday. Yesterday was an assessment of my present situation, today is the dietitian and tomorrow is orientation plus a meeting with a shrink. This is without counting 2 other app. with my current Doctor and 2 more at some clinic for some blood work and a few tests. I am not in a situation to complain about all that help. I am grateful even if its not always easy.

...after the meeting with the dietitian...

I'm sitting outside the hospital. A warm summer day, I'm freezing cold. All I want is to be in an obscure corner and hide till the end of times. Find myself in a mondayless world! So I wont have to come back in a few days and eat every items of food I've been ticking from that endless pile of menus.

To be honest, I do not recall much of today's interview. I can say she was a short friendly lady with the bluest eyes, that I was nodding, answering questions she would ask. Probably looking normal, even joking. But at the same time I was away, kind of on an automatic pilot. She was far and the situation didnt appear to be real. (IF there is such a thing as reality!) My mobile tells me I've been in there for close to 2h. How come do I feel like it was only 20 minuts or so?

WEIRD!...now all I can say is What do I do? Can I use my magical powers to disolve into space? Anybody knows of a secret trick to stop the clock ticking?

Now would be the perfect moment for the heroine to suddenly wake up in her castel and sign with release "Thanks God it was only a nasty dream!"

For 5 months now my Doctor and I have been talking about that damn programme as if it was the Messiah incarnated! Part of me never truly believed it would actually happen one day...and now its in 4.

OK.STOP.

Clearly, i'm not gonna solve a thing with that dramatic state of mind.

I do all I can to have as less valium as possible. The last thing i want is another addiction...But now I think it may help me to chill out and register that it's NOT the end of the world yet again. I'll go for a walk, listen to some music and see how it goes!

Peace, Sof*
 

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