Date:   8/26/2007 12:10:29 AM ( 18 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=950204

Looking back, I know realize that I have had issues with Body Odor since I was about 19 or so. I'm 26. In the past there were a few incidents that should have clued me in to the problem but for the most part I was oblivious. By the time I was 23 I was aware that I was offending people. I was a graduate student, living in a great city, yet I wasn't making friends at school. I was a hermit. For the most part I still am.

During the last 3 years my breath has been a source of depression. In the last 6 months it has gotten so bad that love ones turn away from me, out of habit, when I come towards them to talk to them. I have tried to pretend that I can't see my family members, boyfriend (now ex) and coworkers holding their breath, putting their finger under their nose, breathing threw their mouths or shifting uncomfortably in their seats as if they want to leave the room.

I brush my teeth, scrap my tongue, and gargle with an all-natural mouthwash (i.e. does not contain alcohol or sucrose etc.) after EVERY snack and meal. I floss. Then I brush my teeth several times a day in between those times. My tongue is coated with a thick white stuff at all times no matter how much I brush with Tom's toothpaste, scrap, and rebrush with baking soda to neutralize odor. I carry a toothbrush, paste, scraper, and mouthwash with me at all times.

On top of this steadily increasing mouth odor, I can now smell myself-my feet, my genital areas, underarms at random times throughout the day. I read somewhere that a person has a hard time detecting one's own odor and that we only detect as little as 1/5 - 1/10 of our own scent. This means the odor is 5-10 times tronger to others! I noticed a coworker and my boss exchanging looks once when I walked by them.

My boyfriend stopped kissing me months before we finally broke up (I broke it off for unrelated reasons). It was so noticeable. Although we talked of marriage, kids, and a beautiful future together, we no longer kissed when we made love, we faced each other less and less during sex. We lost a certain level of intimacy. He never said anything mean to me about it and we even talked about doing a Liver Cleansing diet together, but sometimes i would try to talk to him (after brushing my teeth) and he would make this face as if he had just smelled something so disgusting that it was an involuntary reaction.

TODAY was the worst. I went to my colonic appointment. I figure a bowel and Liver Cleansing will help. When I went to schedule another colonic appointment, after quickly swishing some mouthwash around in my mouth in the restroom 30 seconds before, the receptionist still had to cover her nostrils to talk to me. It was so embarrasing. Here I was in a medical facility trying desperately to rid myself of this Body Odor and even the employees had to cover their noses.

I feel alone. I'm isolated. I can't strike up a conversation with anyone. I moved to a new city two years ago and haven't made a single friend. My 20s are passing me by. I don't know what to do.
 

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