Date:   8/22/2007 11:24:14 PM ( 17 y ago)
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my problem is not watching tv or being on the internet.  my problem is what i stated, being severely abused by a sociopath who treated me like a dog tied out back for 3.5 yrs and longer, really.  that is when i started to die.  he stole $30,000 from me, as well.  i was just able to get away from him and i made an appt with a dentist, so i am starting the recovery.  if you look back on the posts, you will see where i posted that.  i would never give up the net.  i am 1200 emails behind as it is because of him and if my pc breaks for a week, i don't like it so much.  i rarely get a chance to watch oprah, but it is sometimes on in the background.  i watch larry king, judge judy, 700 club, joyce meyer, dog the bounty hunter, etc....  they are just playing in the background most the time, i just hear it.  i have been on the pc more lately because of going through this depression of trying to get away from an abuser.  if i would have gotten away from the pc, it would not have helped.  this writing has been theraputic the last two days.  there is no one here to do anythng with and i have no friends here, so i do not want to go out by myself.  but if you read my post, you will see that i have good news.  and i needed to go to the dentist to get well and i have an appt.  i have put it off for over 3 yrs.  that has been one of the biggest sources of my unhappiness.  i can't smile and am in pain all the time from neglect that should have never happened.  i should have been appreciated and loved and taken care of and i would have flourished. if a person watches tv and the internet and is in severe depression, it isn't the tv and internet, in my opinion. and without them, i would be much more depressed.  but thanks for trying to help.  i do not want to go outside at all.  that is one of my problems, but i will not shut off the pc and go out, because i hate it out there.  but like i said, things mite go well with my appt.  when you cannot even open your mouth because it is such a mess, you do not want to be around anyone anyway.  i am on a narcotic pain killer today because of dental pain, so i truly have waited til the last minute.  after i made that appt i had a little bounce in my step and that has not happened in a long long time.  so i am hoping things are changing friday. 

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