My story.....so far... by #45538 ..... Child Sexual Abuse Survivors Support
Date: 5/19/2007 6:11:32 PM ( 17 y ago)
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Where do you start with 'your story'? Start in the present and go back, or visa-versa? It really doesn't matter, does it?
I'm a female in my early 40's married for 25 yrs, have 3 awesome kids! About 8 or 9 years ago, everything seemed to be falling apart, my life, my marriage, especially my health. I had put on weight, I couldn't stop eating, but I knew that I have always eaten a lot. I was having pain in my shoulders, neck and especially my head. Terrible headaches, migraines, whatever you want to call them, it was painful. Along with that I became sensitive to noise, odors, and motion. With the noise, odor, and motion came more head pain. The odor could be cigarette smoke, fumes, perfume, lotion and the like. The motion would be riding in a vehicle, even when I was driving!! Being in a movie theatre, or even just bending over to pick something up off the floor. So this wasn't just little things, it was BIG things, things in every day life. So I have been dealing with head pain for most of the 8-9 years, EVERY DAY! Sometimes I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die.
At first I went the allopathic route. Had an MRI to make sure that I didn't have a tumor. Then it was pill after pill. I was on 12 different meds in 18 months, I was a ZOMBIE! I didn't care about anyone or anything! None of them helped my head pain, the side effects were crappy. Finally after 18 months I told them that I wasn't gonna take anymore.
Five years ago I started working for a chiropractor and she got me started into looking at natural or holistic ways to rid myself of the pain. I did cleanses, fasts, flushes, colonics and more. That stuff helped me, but it didn't help my head pain. Then I started getting sinus infections, I was having a sinus infection 3 weeks out of every month. Ahhhh! More head pain! Then last fall my chiro suggested I go see this other Chiropractor. In her office they do: Neural Organization Technique, chiropractic, aromatherapy & essential oils, therapeutic massage, cranial sacral therapy, cell memory release treatments, lymphatic drainage, emotional release techniques, nutrition counseling, vibrational therapies counseling, and scar tissue release.
I've only been seeing Dr. Melinda for 7 months, and I've made such progress. I've only had 2 sinus infections in the last 5 months. In January we had a break-through. I wasn't sleeping, I was petrified that I was going to be assulted in some way, I was scared of the dark, and I keep seeing this hand reaching out at me, this went on for a week. Using kinesilogy, the hand coming at me was from my past, when I was seven years old. My cousin covered my mouth to warn me not to tell anyone that he was sexually abusing me. It had went on from the time I was 5 until I was 7 yrs old. Dr Melinda said that I started getting head pain because my body was ready to deal with what happened to me as a child. Using many of the resources at Dr Melinda's office, is helping me so much. I'm feeling so much better, I'm having more good days than bad now. My head does not hurt all day long anymore.
I'm learning so much about our health problems.....that most of the time it's not a 'physical' problem, it's an 'emotional' problem. So, if it's an emotional problem, allopathic medicine will not help it.
We have found that because of the abuse:
I eat to cover up the abuse
That's why I was so protective over my kids when they were little, I didn't
even trust my brothers with them.
That's why I was so afraid of the dark
That's why I don't remember anything in those 2 years-nothing concerning home,
school, friends, nothing. That was my survival.
That's why I don't hardly ever dream.
That could be why at that time I started needing glasses and losing my hearing.
I have not confronted my abuser yet. But, I am thinking about contacting his daughter-in-law and telling her, because she lives with him along with her 2 daughters. I know he must be abusing them, and I want to stop it.
I hope that my story gives hope, a light at the end of the tunnel.
God Bless
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