Date:   1/29/2007 3:26:37 PM ( 17 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=823413

Hmmm...you make some interesting points that I had not thought about. I will try to remember.
When I am throwing up, my husband is standing next to me with his hand on my back or stroking my hair and he is angry at the doctor for either not treating me, or treating me with something that made me sick.
I think I feel better, but I am scared that I was so sick (in real life, throwing up scares me) I don't remember any other details, except the violence of being sick.

In terms of medical things. I am considering having weight loss surgery. I feel I have made the right decision, and the only one I have discussed it with is my husband, he is supportive of me, but not my choice, if that makes sense. He thinks I can do it on my own and is scared something will happen to me.


In terms of my mother, I guess I feel like I was forced into a situation that I can not now get myself out of with her. Deep inside, I really think I made the wrong choice, and feel trapped, guilty, etc.

The idea of follow my own bliss, seems so selfish! I kind of believe in a job as being a mean to afford the things that fulfill you, not something that should fulfill you in and of itself. Which is what my job is for me, but I have a lot of people surrounding me telling me they wish I would to "more" with myself, which makes me doubt my decisions.
 

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