Date:   12/9/2006 12:03:19 PM ( 18 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=788449

Can you email me about the retreats so I can ask you a few things...? I have only been to Asia once but it changed my life. I just feel that being in America is like a sucking void all about food, sickness, medication, greed, selfishness and ME ME ME mentality. I, truthfully, am not strong enough to not get sucked in to it until I strengthen my spirituality. I spent a whole lifetime denouncing spirituality until years ago when I had what I guess could be deemed as a "mystical experience". I don't tell many people because when I tried to I got labeled a wacko. (I promise I'm not). Something else out there exists whether anyone wants to believe it or not. I have now had that experience 5 times and even brought my soul mate (closest friend/man/relation whatever) into the experience on the last time and now he tells me my life must be for what I was told in that experience. It's definitely not conventional and it's HARD to trust ourselves and go against the grain... but I was (in no uncertain terms) told to get rid of all my posessions, never own a house and only travel from place to place spreading LIGHT in a world of DARKNESS. Not necessarily talking about religion or God or even spirituality - just being laughter and joy into lives where misery and darkness is all that exists. If you really look around, you wont see too many happy people anymore... everyone is depressed, on pills, fat, angry, honking their horn, wanting their share and more, trying to one up the next guy with their car or posessions... IT'S WRONG. We can never fill up the hole inside ourselves this way.... that is why its been so hard for me to turn my back on my mother because I believe I am supposed to help people in this world. She is just a lost cause and it hurts me that I can't help her....I have tried countless times and I am still too new in cementing my place in the world to have the strength to take on a case like her..anyway, this is probably way too much information but if you could email me about Asia, I would really appreciate that!
*hugs*
Red
 

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