Date:   8/28/2006 1:18:45 PM ( 18 y ago)
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yea so i talked to her, not much, but enough to know the deal. She does not feel the same for me, but she is a great person and told me with honesty and warmth in her words. After all this time of having this girl on my mind, (even the occasional dream; fruity lol) i didnt really feel shitty at all. in fact, afterwards i actually felt kind of happy. Maybe i didnt "love" her, i was tormenting myself i think. However i believe this lil incident shifted my consciousness a bit. Before i called her my intestines would curl, at one point before the last time i called her, i was actually shaking, but i still called. (maybe it was becuz i was outside and it was cold that night.heh) 21 yrs old but im still learning. I have been sleeping easier. God put her in my life to send me a message, but nothing more i think. God bless her. She will probably be wierded for a bit, and maybe try to forget the whole thing. But i think maybe God put me in her life to send her a message; nothing more. Before i didnt think i would be able to express myself to her, but after doing so, i feel like i can express myself to anyone. Lets see. Guess its time to find the right one. Guess i just need to look in the right place. hmmm oh well ive been patient long enough, i guess im in no rush. one day. damn a real man knows a real woman when he sees one. . . i love being real. WORD LIFE.
 

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