Date:   5/26/2005 7:03:30 AM ( 20 y ago)
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Alright,

Decided to get physically healthy last May 1st. SO I just past my 1 year anniversary.
Whoo Hoo.

One year before that I left a abusive marriage. Really bad.
I was really sick and huge.

I was fat fat fat. Walking to the corner was a huge chore.
So last year I adopted a dog. Started vegatarianism Monday to Friday -
more free with food on weekends. 3 month's of this then I discovered the master cleanse, and said I'll try for 5 days. hmmm okay go for 10. Felt awesome at 10 days. go for 15. I decided I'm doing 30 . On day 29 my mother who has a marter problem - Hates to see me happy.
said "well why not do 40" . So I did. I went to 43 simply because I didn't have what was needed to stop properly.
I did a rebuilding program. I still eat mostly good clean foods. I experiment with cleansing stuff and holistic, dosha's. etc. I find alot of the herbal, old world stuff really is amazing.

I have alway had self esteem issues, and weighed heavy as a kid. Abused kid.
Then on my own as a teen and twenties lost it all because I was happy.
Married really poorly - was sick and miserable - so I gained and gained.
Got out of that worked on me and happiness - took it off.

I gave up the scale because it really did mess with my head. Seeing numbers I didn't like set that day off poorly. I thing that was a big step towards maintenance. I go by my clothes and generally feeling.

I am 37 5' 11" I wear a size 8 jeans sometimes 10 depending on the brand.
I was trying to get into a size 6 but I looked at a few picture of myself from my twenties when I was a size 6, and truthfully I look too skinny.

When I said it was the end -to the bad husband I was a size 3x or the biggest crappiest clothing I could find. What American size is that 24-26?
I don't know, cause who wants to even buy clothes when you are that big and unhappy.

Now I will admit over the winter I was lazy and put on pounds. Not a ton. but things were too tight.
So I have been fasting to drop those. Which I have. A bit of pudgy tummy still, but I'm going with the - umm you aren't Angelina Jolie. :) prespective.

I didn't want to stop at this is good enough for me.
I wanted to get to where I was comfortable and confident.
I still feel huge, That goes with stature as well. This height, broad shoulders and being chesty with a thing for heels - I guess I will always feel like I stand out.
My friends who knew me when I was young and happy are thrilled to see me living again. It's not just the weight, it's happiness. A joy and appreciation for life.

I know giving you a pound number would solidify the reality of it for some of you. Sorry, but I won't do that for anyone. HAHA
Even at my doctors office I still get on the scale backwards.
I am in great health by the way. My Doctor who has been with me since I was 14, - only wants me to try to get more deep greens for iron. He questions me like crazy. Looking for some secret miracle to pass on. I laugh and say tell people to get the posion out of their lives. Weither it be toxic foods, habits, people.

Story doesn't flow to smoothly. It's hard to sum up a history shortly.



 

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