Date:   5/24/2005 3:59:00 PM ( 20 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=693826

Tips: No, this is my first time....

I just read all of the posts... Found out the dangers... Got encouraged by others results.

Went to the pro- ana websites.. so I knew what not to become. See I'm overweight. I have lots of fat in my mid-section for my body to feed on... I would like to be 160. Not 120. I want to get a good start because I already came to the point where I excepted that I cannot eat junk and sit around doing nothing... I'm not that girl. I'm not Julia Roberts with a personal trainer and a 10 million dollar contract forcing her to lose all of her baby weight in two days. Thats not me. I'm not going to end up annorexic because thats not the woman I want to be. I want to be happy and I just needed a little drastic change to figure myself out and trust me...what I'm doing now is taking everything I have. I have a spouse and 2 kids that need to be fed. I'm constantly preparing meals and snacks and last night I made the best Meatloaf I have ever made in my life and I took my time and cut up those bell peppers and...

made those homemade mash potatoes and thought....


" you cant have any because you abused this food"
" you cant have any of this because you had to much and now I'm going to let you go without so you can appreciate it again"



When I think that I cant go anymore I tell myself that Its like being on a desert island without food. I'm waiting to be rescued...and the thing thats going to do that is weight loss and a new begining!


Just my thoughts...
 

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