Date:   8/11/2005 5:30:11 PM ( 19 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=669098

I so very much agree. I also had a really bad childhood - alcholic parents, abandonment and left alone a lot, responsible for everything in the household and watching younger siblings while left alone for days (age 10), and with a lot of dysfunction,etc. I ran away to the West coast when I was 17, just to get away from everyone in my family! Been here ever since, and then the family followed me....wouldn't you know!

Long ago, I felt guilty about running away, but I really now feel that it was absolutely necessary self-preservation! AND--only a short time later here I had an experience where I asked God into my life and accepted Jesus Christ as my savior. I just read a little booklet at my kitchen table, and prayed the prayer inside of it and a SEED OF LIFE (as you so beautifully referred to in your post) was planted. Little by little growing, and I have never been the same. And then my family members also did the same, over time. Now we all are better off than before. With some bumps and pot holes in the road, of course. Continual road construction.

That was a good post from alicat also. I think that we never really forget, but with time and healing, we can stop remembering! I think it's that calling the offense/debt to account that is what keeps the wounds open festering and even bleeding.

I recently posted here about the situation I went thru with my ex - he had secretly kept three families at the same time. That was such a betrayal. I am better from that also, but have not fully recovered from the aftermath. He had two children with me, and then got another woman pregnant about the time I was going to deliver our second child. I did not find out about it until later, when I learned about another relationship and baby with another woman.

I'm sure that each of us has our story - if we all got together and chatted over coffee! I'm drinking some hot tea right now, so hey! We ARE CHATTING!

It's true - it IS a seed. And one day we get to bloom and show off our beautiful flower! Then the flower goes to seed and we reap a harvest because we are able to comfort someone else with that which with we ourselves have been comforted!


 

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