Date:   8/25/2004 10:41:52 PM ( 20 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=666841

Hi Bill,
I didn't realize you wrote more than one letter, sorry. I think you are 100% right. I do need to be alone, as a matter of fact that person that I care so much about, said the same thing, as a matter of fact, exactly the same thing, strangely enough. I just want to be alone. I don't want anyone in my life right now, but myself and my little men (that is what I call them). I want a life of my own to be me and do what I want to do, when I want to do it, and God willing things will work out the way I want them to in the end. I know, staying here, I will never have what I need in my life, especially the person I would love to have in my life. We ARE opposite, you and I, I am not terribly logical, I am emotional. I try that logic thing, but it just never works the way it should for me. As a matter of fact, today, a good friend and I were talking, about this situation I am in and she said "you can't really blame your mom for this decision, you never listen to anyone anyhow"...my response to that was "ya know, this was the FIRST time in my life I did what I was told, and look where that got me!" So back to the drawing board, I will just go back to diving in, and doing what I think is best at any given time, the emotional thing works for me, if I think to much about it, I always mess it up. Scarey for someone logical I know. So I am diving in, I am going to pick myself up and make the necessary changes I need to, to get back on track again. I actually got this fantastic job offer today, just by chance. I believe if you want something bad enough, it will happen. So, who says I can't start my own business and have two children, be alone and work...oh I am getting exhausted just thinking of it...just kidding. Actually I am beside myself with happiness this evening because of it. Thanks again for your thoughtful words.
 

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