Date:   8/25/2004 10:26:41 PM ( 20 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=666840

I am sorry that you don't believe people make mistakes. Some you regret, some you do not. I AM a good person, and no, I would not look you in the eye and befriend you. I did not with her either. I do know how she feels, because my husband did it to me, and I do not defend what I did. It was wrong, if I believed it to be right, my life would just go on, as nothing had ever happened. It did happen, I never meant for it to happen, but it did. I do believe he loved me and I believe he still does and that will never change. That is between he and I. You would never know if you never make mistakes. I wish I were more like that, I wish I never did make mistakes. Things never have been great in my life, but they will be. I am not the only person that has made mistakes in their life, I did, I don't feel good about them, I never will, but I will not have you or anyone else make me feel like I am a tramp or trash or anything else you feel the need to call me. My first husband cheated on me and so did my current, I do know the pain, and I never meant to cause anyone else that pain. I was actually very nice to the girl that my first husband was with. At the time, she was very young and naive and I knew he would hurt her the way he hurt me and I honestly felt terrible for her, but was glad that my pain was coming to an end. I never hated her, or resented her, because I never knew what he was telling her. It may never have been her fault, as many times it is not. I realize there are women out there that focus on "the ring" and go for it, I can assure you, that is not me. I can't justify it, nor do I want to. I can't change the past, only the future. Although I do not appreciate your verbal attacks, I do appreciate your opinion, and I do understand it. If you knew me, you would never know I was in this situation, never. You just happen to have read my true story and I do apologize that I have brought up painful memories for you, I never meant to, I just needed to talk and this was my only way to do that. There were times I wanted to end it all, but I could never do that to my boys. I need them and they need me. They are so precious. If you have children, you understand. I am sorry that I have upset you so. Hopefully you can put my story behind you and move on. Thanks for your input, but a goodbye is a good thing between us, for sure. You will never see my side, and although I recognize your side, you are poison to me. I need support to get through this and I just think if you can't find it in your heart to offer that to people then maybe you are in the wrong place. You could hit someone the wrong way, and if they were fragile enough you may just be the straw that breaks their back, and maybe, just maybe, they would walk away from their life in a very permanent way, I don't think you would want that, noone would want to do that to another human being. I believe that people are basically good. I just do. Including myself, I'm sorry you just can't see it.

FYI- you questioned what my family had to do with all of this, or the tragedy I have faced in my life, but if you re-read the letters, you would realize it was in response to your comment that I needed to "grow up", as you so kindly put it. I don't need to, I already have, way too early, simply put. That you may understand. I guess I shared so much you lost track of the point I was looking to make.
Goodbye on this end also, take care.
 

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