Date:   8/24/2004 3:00:33 PM ( 20 y ago)
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i have been with my boyfriend jim for almost a year now. i trusted him with everything, and i never expected him to lie to me or anything cuz he said himself that he could never lie to me or hurt me like my ex did.
i'm very insecure and its hard for me to trust anyone, cuz 5 of my close friends betrayed me, my ex boyfriend betrayed me and my boyfriend now has been lying to me. so i dont know who to trust or what to believe and self esteem is just like non existent at this point.
he broke my trust by lying to me the first time, and he lied to me a couple more times and has done some questionable things, and he hasnt done anything to gain it back. and recently my insecurities have been really bad, and we had a long talk about how i felt about everything but then a few weeks later he went to hooters. which really destroyed me, cuz he knew how i felt about that and he knew it was gonna hurt me cuz he made his best friend promise not to tell me, but i found out anyway, and he said he only went for the wings, but thats kind of unbelieveable, cuz what group of guys goes to hooters just for the wings? and he wasnt gonna tell me either.
i just feel like im not good enough for anybody, like he doesnt care about how i feel if he doesnt agree with it and i just dont know what to believe anymore. he promised me he didnt look at p 0 r n or think other girls were attractive but hes just done things that made me question that. and i want to trust him, i want him to try to make things better and respect my opinions and wishes and i wanna get better, i dont wanna be as insecure as i am now, i want to be able to trust my boyfriend when he goes out with his friends. i dont know what to do and i need help

... please can someone give me some input i want to save my relationship before my insecurities ruin it
 

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