Date:   8/24/2004 8:15:29 AM ( 20 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=666806

Excuse me, why exactly are you supporting my children???? I never borrowed that man, and he would tell you the same. He would also tell you, he would not be there with her, whether it be because of me or not. He didn't love her, never did. Not even when he married her. He does not blame me, he blames himself. I blame me. Again, a person that plays the "victim" blames other people, I blame noone but myself, not my husband, not society, not the way I was raised. I couldn't be anymore grown up than I am. I have lived a pretty hard life and come out very well for going through it all. Let me ask you, did you ever see your father throw a knife at your mom or your father take a two by four to you or punch your brother in the head up against a concrete wall? Did you ever sit and watch your mother at the age of 4 have 8 small heart attacks before having a massive heart attack, have to watch someone feeding her for months because she was too weak to feed herself? How about getting up every night, your entire childhood to watch her breath, to make sure she was breathing. She was supposed to have died two years later, I am lucky I still have her. None of this matters except to tell you, not explain, that I am as adult as you can get. I have been too adult my entire life, and always afraid of losing those I love, afraid to let anyone important down in my life. I have lived my life for my family, mainly my Mom. I still take care of her. She lives in the house I own, the house I bought so she had her house. My Grandparents bought the house for her, but because she was disabled she couldn't "own" it, so it was put in my aunts name. When my Grandmother, who lived with us for 10 years after my Grandfather past away, died, my aunt decided to sell the house and profit from something she never put so much as a dime into, so I bought it for her to live the rest of her life in. My Mom had just lost her Mom and her older sister, who was essentially her best friend. My Aunt burned to death the day after Christmas the year before my Grandmother past away. Her robe caught on a candle and she had 3rd degree burns over 90% of her body, she was airlifted to Boston, and was removed that night from life support, she is in peace. But my Mom is alone, she has myself and the boys. I don't know why I bother to tell you all of this, other than to say, I am aware of tragedy, I have had more than my share, and so has my family. I have suffered an enormous amount and lost a lot of people I love dearly. The last thing you can say is "grow up" to me. I couldn't be anymore responsible or grown up. I have started my own business to try to support my family, alone. So, please unless you can find something positive to say, don't bother trying to bring me down any further than you already have. And again, please explain, how are you supporting my children???? Did you mail me a check I don't know about??
 

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