Date:   12/30/2003 2:51:22 PM ( 22 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=664543

I don't know how to trust, I cannot believe he actually loves me, I don't know how much contact is necessary to have a relationship, I have never had anything close to a healthy relationship and my mate happens to be turning 21 on saturday so what the hell does he know? hahaha I purposely went out on him so that in the end if he does it to me, well .............I did it first..na na na na How imature is that, I disgust myself sometimes. see I have left this guy numerous messages on occasion, ranting and raving, telling him I never want to see him again, that I hate him, that he's a liar, he's not really at work...........just cause I didn't hear from him in what I thought was a reasonable amount of time. He eats all that and calls me to sooth me telling me that all is ok, that he is at work, that he loves me, nothing is wrong and that I need to relax. He'll say things like, I was gonna call last night when I got the messages but you pissed me off and I didn't want to say anything I didn't mean. This guy calls me everyday, usually more than once, tells me he loves me like 5 times before he'll even hang up the phone. Why is it that i just can't get myself to believe it, am I hanging on to past hurt, am I jaded, or am I just scared because he's so young, and unbelievably handsome, and I know all girls say that about their guy but he truly is like movie star handsome. It scares me, everything scares me, I am in a constant state of panic

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