Date:   10/21/2003 6:03:26 PM ( 21 y ago)
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Wow. I just want to say that over this past week I've gone from "this is hell I'll never get over it" to just forgetting about it like you said and things are getting back to normal. That feelings thing makes a lot of sense. I've figured out by now that it's his problem. Not feeling ya know, and he did tell me when I was asking what went wrong and all that stuff when he broke up with me..he said "I just wanted to be normal, cause I'm not", not being like...not normal as far as having no feelings is. It is messed up though ya know, we were tight, really tight. It just slipped away I guess, I was drowned in loving him that I didn't realize I wasn't "fun" or I was "effing annoying, pissing him off" It's so nice to know that someone else had the same situation though! Like I said before I think, in the beginning I was like "ahhh..this is totally messed up no one will go through this kind of messed up depression!" But man, I was wrong.
Heh, so ya, I'm like...completely in love with the ocean also. I try to surf when I can but I need a new board, right now I'm using a horribly old 50/50 with one fin and it's tough! My ex, he was more of a camping man, but he liked to come up to my summer place and hang out by the water. THe more I think about it, it's probably for the best. He's leaving a little while after Christmas to join the air force for 4 years. I knew we would eventually break up but...not this way. That's probably something that frustrates me the most. I just wanted to spend the rest of his time here together you know but it's screwed up now. Especially x-mas....grrr, I'm sick of being alone on x-mas. Well, I'm getting through it though, definitely much better than a week ago. Thanks a lot for your help, I'm here for ya too. :0)
 

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