Date:   10/13/2003 11:21:05 PM ( 21 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=594855

Damn, I'm so angry at myself for letting things happen so fast.
I'm not sure if it's love, butI really feel something very special for her. I'm so sensitive to what she does that she hurts me so easily.

I told her I couldn't keep going like this, and that it was better for her and I not to talk to eachother anymore. She got very upset and called me a crybaby, and she acted like she really wanted to be with me. Within hoirs, we were talking again, ,and now I find myself hurting even more. I'm hurting because she cannot make up her mind about us. On top of aeverything, I told her how I felt, so I feel that she has all of me, and I have nothing of her.

I find myself wondering if I can actually just let her go. I can see everything being so wonderful with us being together, but it's all a rollercoaster.
If I knew that she didn't see us being together in the future I could move on, but it's so hard to let go of something that is almost a reality. Then again, she can really mess me up. It's a game to her, and I feel so useless. It's so hard to just quit, because when I plan to do so, she makes all the bullshit worth one moment of just being with her. I think I'm really screwed.
 

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