Date:   12/7/2004 8:58:02 AM ( 21 y ago)
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Such pain for a little girl to store! I am not a therapist. For years, I have read about the Afterlife; this information has had a great impact on the way that I life my own life.

If you accept that you are a soul, a part of God who has come to Earth to learn specific lessons and to go back Home -- again and again, then perhaps you may be open to accepting that we each choose our Life Path for each of our returns to Earth. In doing so, other souls agree to play out the Good People or the Bad People in our lives. In this life, your lessons must relate to self-esteem and not being the victim. Once you recognize the patterns (which you are now doing), then you either keep playing them out or you decide to finish the lesson and move to the next one.

On a MUCH smaller scale than you, I used to find myself having an argument with my Dad (suddenly, in my head, at the kitchen sink); I wanted to stop this because I knew that continual anger can result in physical illness and I did not want to go that route. A psychologist who worked with energy visited our small town; I made an appointment with her and in one hour, she worked on me about this problem. I had to say that I loved my Dad (which, remarkably, was very difficult for me to say); when I could finally say this, and after her bringing considerable energy to me, I felt much better. From that day until his death many years later, I could stand toe-to-toe to him without feeling like a 'kid' (I was 40 at the time!). It was quite liberating!

Later, I also tried Breatherapy which is a particular way of breathing (under the supervision of a facilitator). I think I was just trying to progress on my inner journey. Different things happened to different people in the class; my experience was to become shrivelled up and almost paralyzed -- I was alarmed, but the facilitator assured me that I was fine. Then, I passed through that phase and got back to normal (all within an hour). The facilitator told me that my reaction indicated that I was not living my life at all -- I had not realized that through our difficult, survival-only financial times (at that period), I had given up hope of our having a normal life once again. As a result of that session, the shell around me 'cracked' and I emerged once again. My husband's experience had him feeling as though flames were shooting from his feet and he asked the facilitator to remove his socks. He also had a 15-minute weeping jag -- like most men, he keeps his emotions to himself; he felt wonderful after that session. Unfortunately, we could not afford to go through the whole course (10 sessions), but even that one-hour session helped considerably. I did meet a young woman who had finished the course; she had been badly abused for years and had been a wreck. When I met her, she was a lovely, glowing young woman and she told me that the Breatherapy has transformed her. This process is a way to unload a lot of emotional baggage without having to analyze it all of the time.

Perhaps this might be worth considering -- it would stop the 'record' playing in your head constantly. When it does this, it gets stronger.

So, going back to your life choices before you came here, you chose this particular lesson for some reason; it sounds as though you are now willing to finish the lesson. Your Mother did what you wanted her to do in her part as your Mother. She, too, may have needed to play that weak part for her reasons. You will have to forgive her for her actions toward you. Just sit down and write a list of the people's names who did you an injustice and whom you want to forgive. It makes no difference to them; it makes a huge difference to you. It cuts your emotional tie to them. Events are neutral; we apply emotion to them.

'You Can Heal Your Life' by Louise L. Hay is a terrific little book; she relates her own experiences and how she healed them and a way for us to heal our own; she also lists the various diseases and the metaphysical reasons for their occurring as well as a positive affirmation to establish a positive change.

The journey to freedom is not to California; it is the inner journey which you must take. It takes some time, but it is very interesting and liberating. You can certainly work on it while you are in California. The physical break from your current situation would give you some space to pursue your inner journey.

Even sitting down and writing your entire life in a journal could be cathartic and release you from the talk in your head. While the bad stuff is there, it clutters you up and there is no room for new, good stuff.

For some interesting reading on the soul and its work here, etc., try the Silvia Browne books -- Soul Perfection is one of them. Edgar Cayce 's books are most interesting; he was called the sleeping prophet. He did over 14,000 readings on past lives and on health; very interesting reading.

May you continue your quest; your husband must love you very much. Do this for yourself; give up the painful and move toward the good. Resolving these problems will make you a stronger woman -- and, a more loving wife and mother because you will have found a more peaceful place within yourself.

It is difficult to learn two new things at once, but may I suggest that you investigate Nourishing Traditions -- this is the way that we used to eat pre-WWII. This involves eating losts of saturated fats, raw milks and cheeses; in California, you would be able to find these products easily. Eating well is good for the nerves, etc. I have experimented with many systems of eating and am returning to Nourishing Traditions. It just makes sense. There is a Forum here; check it out.

Best of luck on your journey to health!


 

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