Date:   6/9/2004 9:27:22 PM ( 21 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=532350

Hello,

I am female too, and was raised Catholic... but
over the years I have become spirtual... I call it this.

I had feelings for women at the age of 22, but they were strictly sexual. I use to read mens magazines, or look at the women in them.

I have never been with another woman, and I am now 38. I do have fantasies about them, but have never had what it takes
to go through with it. I somehow felt I would not like
how I felt after it was over, like a guilt thing. ::)

I am quite certain that the day will come when I will be with a woman SEXUALLY. I know this deep down, it is something I really want to do. The time is just not right now.
I always had guilt when I use to spank the monkey at a young age, it was the catholic thing, and my mother use to tell us, my sisters and I that self-gratification was bad. :))))) Boy, did I have guilt. I now dont, and spank the monkey with no problem.

What I can say to you is... that if you are a good person, and are gay, you like women... you fall in love with a woman... then what is wrong with that? I believe... that we are meant to be here to be happy, and if you are not harming anyone, then nothing is wrong.

If you go be with a man... then you are not being who you are...
deep inside.

I think possibly, the time will come when you know what to do.

RELIGION, boy! that is why I dont like it that much anymore...
it puts such guilt on us. I had catholic friends of ours tell me I had evil spirits in me, and that they were attacking my mind, when in fact.. it was stress, and having lyme disease.
It was at this point when these people told me I had evil spirits, that I broke, my mind went, I thought I was not going to make it in the mind. Lyme disease was really making me go almost insane, so when someone told me this, it was unreal.

After recovering from my mental breakdown, I said to myself, no more religion, I am doing what I feel is right inside... and
if I want to use tarot cards, or the pendulum to try to help me with my path in life, then so be it. I became so strong after my breakdown, and I now know who I am.

Dont fret, be strong, pray... and you will be ok.



:)
 

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