Date:   7/1/2004 5:45:28 PM ( 20 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=499048

I am fine where I am. My environment is fine.
I am way too sensitive to be on boards like this.
I am of a very sensitive nature, yet am tough,
always tough. BELIEVE me when I say, that I can read
what I see.

I am very sick today, from the toxins from lyme bacteria...
and when I get so ill I speak my mind and go nutty sometimes, but it is all real.

I learned through my pain that when people are nutty that sometimes it is because they dont know how to deal with pain, so they go nutty. Either physical or emotional pain.
When people are mean, it is either because they are truly evil, or they are angry at themselves, and they take it out on others.

I know what is going on with me, I just posted here because I wanted others to see it, and maybe they would get some use of it maybe they could pray and get some signs like I.

By using energy on this forum, I could be using it for myself.
I need to focus on what is going on with me, and pick up that what is happening here, right now on this forum is a SIGN telling me to use my energy on other things, cause I get upset too easy...

I am being subtly told by my angel to get off here and focus on myself, not to give any energy to anyone else cause my energy is too low now, and if I focus on debating here... I wont have any for myself.

As well, I am healing, and I am not always in the right mind, so some can make fun of me... not into this anymore. Mean people everywhere.

take care.

EVERYTIME I give it gets thrown in my face most times.
I just cannot take it anymore. People dont ask me to give, I just di it to help someone, and what do I get, I get sh*__*_)(.
Not always, but alot. There nice people like you and some others on here, but there are others that are truly mean. I have had this happen on other forums... and now I can see.

I mean, who has the guts to SHOW their falls on the net? I do.
What do I get? mean things said to me. I LIKE to see when others fall, then they get back up again, is shows so much character... but this does not happen on the net very often. I cannot make someone be or do what I want them to do.
I am learning alot about myself, and the most important thing is... I have to be more selfish... keep more things to myself, cause way too many cut them up.

HECK, maybe some of this that I wrote is all toxins, who knows.

Making an idiot of myself on the net, and that is not good for me.





Gehna


 

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