Date:   4/9/2004 11:44:50 PM ( 20 y ago)
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OMG Alison first off. I know it is hard to express even a small percent of what we experienced with our limited language but you do well at least in offering description. Once I tried writing what was going on when I was in that halfway state It reads......I am rolling green, yellow and orange from my forehead,I roll, I exist not only as anthony but as A, I am a book! (there is a big difference somehow in a and A)
I remember as I wrote this of course it made absolute sense.

Man when I think about that laughter and even reading your description of laughter it makes me laugh... so unbelievably funny things are. I just recall lying on the floor after I was pulled down I knocked over a vaporizer full of water and layed in it without a care just laughing! I recall really examining myself... my lungs were just heaving I had no control over the spasms but they weren't just spasms because I continued to laugh and experience hilliarity. I did not want to stop so I did not.
I recall thinking surely people outside will hear me!

I pretty much freeze up so there is no danger of me walking outside somewhere into danger. The first time I blocked my doors and put up a sign to warn myself. It's weird how it takes a while to remember that you smoked salvia its like OH yeah! and sometimes I don't even realize it until I come out.

The angles the accordion effect you describe well. Usually this mother character or a bright orange yellow light sweeps reality away I feel an escalator effect inside my spine, my mouth opens and I feel like I am going inside my body at a different angle or plane.

The repeating phases really freaked me. I got stuck in a neverending repeating loop several times. Once I was something akin to a striker key in a piano and someone was playing me over and over and over into eternity I moaned everytime my key was struck. Another time I was in a huge sphere of consciousness composed of other souls. Everytime someone screamed the momentum carried us in that direction we rolled and rolled any clue of stopping was lost when another would scream. I tried to tell the others not to scream and we would have rest. But of course I had to scream to be heard and that made things worse. This went on for ever and continued to even after I came back to reality. The other 2 times is almost indescribable these were actually my first 2 experiences that scared the hell out of me they occurred on 2 seperate occassions and I actually tried again to experience a breakthrough... I was stuck in a endless hedgerow of bushes or plants with an endless amount of souls. We had tounges and on cue like a chorus line we had to stick them out every few seconds we had to do this like the wave at sporting events in between one repetition and the other we lived different lifetimes. I experienced an eternity of lifetimes in what seemd like 2 seconds in between repetitions of this tongue wave thing. Reminds me of the "I exist in the space between breaths" thing.

Anyway I'm sure others think were way beyond goofy or went to hell or something, but wow Its like the other is real and consensus reality is a dream. SOmetimes I have experienced that I am part of a dream of a large man or our universe is a speck of dust being swept up by God.

I have thought about plants but man this stuff is so powerful and I do respect it it is truly an ally and it calls you. I am not afraid but I have a fear meaning reverence and respect for it. I have had a gram of leaves for like 3 yrs now. I would not Know what to do with an ounce. Maybe oral ingestion or chew? I have always been called to it never a recreation.. even lady sativa along with Marley & Tosh told me back in those days to have respect.

SO the stuck in the floor thing did not scare you? I was a freaky bitch the first 2 times I was stuck. I was scared 15x more than I can relay in words while stuck in those loops but the plant told me I needed to come back in due course and check to see if could escape my fears sometimes I would go back to the same damn loop, but as I worked my fears and emotions and spiritual work I would break through on later visits.

other visits were pure shamanic healing for myself I met others who were tongue and fungal related characters who related to candida overgrowth and I learned not to use commercial toothpaste and exitotoxins I was actually shown a drama of what the guys do inside you.. Remember the old Fruit of the loom guys?

I so enjoyed your experiences I am a loner with this so I smile when I hear others especially the reverent ones who know the use of the ally!


love A

 

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