Date:   2/8/2006 9:26:49 AM ( 18 y ago)
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Louise,
And your wise words touched mine. I am breaking out of a 12 year cycle of deep depression....incapacitating depression, and all the fears and self doubts have risen up in me the last couple of days, saying "you are headed back there. You can't stop it." And interestingly, my menstrual cycle started just yesterday. (I never keep track...is there a correlation that you've noticed).

Somehow, I have to grasp what you are saying, without giving into, and going into the incapaciting hole of depression...it is for me a mental battle.

You replied to one of my postings on another forum--you called me 'brave'. Namaste. I went back and reread it yesterday, because it was reassuring, and gave me a healthier perspective. It is my challange to change the pattern, to choose mental health, to see the 'lemonaid' in this whole issue. When one is at a brink, as I feel so clearly I am, one can fall in the abyss, or fly. What I can't seem to grasp, is that either would be a learning experience, however, for my growth and well being, I need/want/yearn to 'fly'. To break out of the depression cycle. To still the self doubts and the fears. To pass through the shadows, and emerge, quickly, on the other side. To experience the 'lightness' and easiness. To let go of the 'dis-ease'.

It is good to 'walk along the path' with another. Thank you Louise.

peace and joy,
pj

 

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