Date:   11/17/2003 8:19:56 PM ( 21 y ago)
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Yes, I did check out his site - and enjoyed it very much. I haven't read all of it yet, just page one (but it's a good long page), but so far I really like what he's saying - it 'feels' right.

Sorry if my flippant reply earlier seemed a bit dismissive - I most certainly didn't *mean* it to sound that way! Not at all. In fact, his "conversation" literally resonated so well with me because I have had extremely similar "self dialogues'. (Hence my comment on the tin-foil hats, it was as if he'd read my mind.)

On some levels, I *know* that we are all more than just connected - we are all One. However, I'm still stuck on other levels that see all of our unique differences. I've synthesized and integrated "God" from many viewpoints until I see a whole, and I've come to understand that we are all included in that whole - emotionally. But intellectually, I still get hung up on the illusion.

There is yet another barrier in my conscious mind - literally. I can 'see' it with my mind's eye. A huge, black wall that extends in all directions blocking off a section of what I know is "me". It's been there for years and years, sitting out past the smaller maze of walls I'd built (and finally found my way out of.) At first it was matte black, then years ago it slowly became illuminated and highly polished. Sleek, seamless, unscarred - reflecting back to me myself. However, lately, I'm starting to see cracks, crevices, seams, and blocks appearing. Finally, after so many years of smooth silent mocking, I see a beginning. One day, this too shall pass. And when it does, I know I'll be waiting on the other side. I wonder what I'll have to tell myself.

Ok, now that was probably waaaaay more than anyone really cared to know! lol But, it seems to be the right time to mention it, so I'll let it stay.
 

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