Date:   9/16/2003 10:19:21 PM ( 21 y ago)
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hi. just taking it easy 8)
btw my personal goals in life are to just "be"
and to find joy in being. and to be happy of the reality of "true" things around me.
hmmm i am really not into sharingmuch personal experiences , but maybe youcan relate.
i was sitting and went into nothing ness/ literally blown thru the universe where even the universe coudl not be "thoguth of as such, caus eat taht point i couldn't even hav etold you waht a universe was.
everything was nothing and nothing was every thing yet alive.
i just WAS. not know in gwho i was or waht i was or where i was.
none of that had any meaning at all.
after along time (or a short time ) since i was timeless
slowly i drew back first feelign allthe atoms aroun dme.
the paattersn and movements and laws that hold them and make them each so uniquely differnt.
eventually i fel tlike i wa sin a plant sort of/ you know allthe cells an dlife and then i realised i was a tree an din a tree and par tof the tree. and how helpless and vulnerabl ean dinnocent of knowledg e the tree was. in that state of mind someone could hav e com e in a killed me. i would have had no concept of what was happening and no way to defend myself. i was a vulnerabl eas the tree. i would hav ejstu ceased to be. ( as who i am now on earht anyhow.)
gradually i began to hear birds singing and crickets chirping and feeling the breeze thru the air and then i began to see again
that i was sitting in my room looking out my window in my yard and i was a human, bu tyet jstu as vulnerable as these precious "true works created by god.
and i felt jesus whisper in my ear remember this. this is the reality. thisis the treasure. this is the gift of life.
and the responsiblility we all have to protect these natural created blessings of earth that canno tprotect them selves
they are liek undefended babies at the mercy of the whims of humans. and i knew how valuable eveyr tree on my land was. eveyr bird adn how much i needed them as much as they needed me.
we are connected. i cannot live with out them , neither they without me to care for thwm and keep them hhealth y also.
they are my solace, they are my peace, they are my healing.
not a concrete building. they are alive and together we brign life to each other.
youmus t think i am nuts *laugh *
i have always respected the land.
but no wi know wha tit is liek to be that land and how truly vulneralble it is/onc elost it cannot be reagined.
i have determined to do nothing to hurt my land or alter it inless iit helsp keep my yar din a harmony of life an di will protect it. i need it / it needs me.

call me dipsy *smile *

Ami B.
ps when ever i get stressed i now go sit in my yard and jstu listen
to th e wind, to the trees , to the birds and knwo THIS is reality. this is the gift of god. no one can create these things.
we can build anything ewe want , bu twe cannot make a universe/ we cannot make the cellular stucture tha t amkes each plant so uniquely it sown self whiel yet sharing so may traits ( iam rambleing i think maybe you knwo wha ti am talkign about )
 

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