Date:   2/14/2006 5:03:30 AM ( 19 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=431983

Hi Plantsheal, I process a lot in dreams too and had fairly significant ones but nothing like that really. How symbolic. I wish I could finish with all this crap, but it seems not yet as I've had another load put on me and reacted in a bad way, so now I feel bad about myself. In some situations I seem to loose control and I'm scared of that.

I feel about as low as I can be really. Surely I cannot go lower?? Surely, this is the bottom of the barrel now. I CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE GOD!!! Please god, please hear that.

I am sometimes angry and sometimes depressed. I have found, like that article suggests, that I am better when I am angry than depressed as the Depression just numbs me and I do very little. When I'm angry I take action, but when I get scared, like today, I make bad decisions. When will I grow up? When will I get real and get a life?



 

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