Date:   11/1/2005 4:44:43 PM ( 20 y ago)
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Do I think this earth is a test? Not really. Not in those words. Not a pass and fail issue.. Because I believe we were given free will. Everyone pretty much agrees with the free will fact of life. But my God is not string puller. He doesn’t pull strings and say... well I have given you free will but because I want to test you I will give you a disabled son. No. I feel we direct our experiences in some way before we come because we have free will.. We say "well I can try to accomplish this and that through....being disabled or being the mother of a disabled child or.....Being black... white...etc..." Do we decide how we will REACT to those events ahead of time? No. That’s the free will. That is what we need to figure out. Here. Now. And so when we get these challenges...( I feel they are challenges and not tests. Tests have levels of failing. I don;t think we ever fail. We just evaluate our levels of success. And we do it... Not God. Because I feel we are the only ones who judge ourselves in the end. )

We say... let’s see how I did? That to me is the only judgement when we die. Ourselves. Is this preached? No. But it is the only thing that makes sense to me. God is not haphazard and does not take our rights away because He decides to DO something to us. So that could be the part where it is said... God doesn’t give you anymore than you can handle. We decide the lesson and come and try to figure everything out while in this state. Easy? Never.

And so when we get challenges... we should say... "what is the best way to live through this challenge? How can I do this with grace and love... and ease or FLOW?" for lack of a better word. Does that mean we don;t feel sorry for ourselves? Or feel like a victim. No. I have done both. A LOT. But I am growing as I evolve into a person with a greater spiritual understanding. I have realized.... because we DO choose our path... we are never victims. And so all of a sudden it is all OK. I am totally responsible for all of this. Like it or not. And I feel the plan of life. The plan I helped make. Does this happen overnight? It’s been six years for me so far. But life is more exciting than ever and so full of promise. Can you get there?... YOU WILL. If you want.

Anyway... I have a tape for you to listen to about loving yourself if you would like it. That is the most important thing right now. Take care of you first and then others will be taken care of because without you nothing can be done. I believe Jesus said Love yourself and your neighbor as yourself and that the first part is the hardest. If we could all learn to do that.... what an earth to behold!
 

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