Date:   6/1/2004 5:30:00 PM ( 20 y ago)
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This is a story of a gentleman who made the biggest choice of his life, to turn his life over to Jesus although his parents are buddist that he lives with. Jesus should His love by not leaving him or forsaking him.

Before i've come to know Jesus personally,i've known Him well enough to write a story of His life.My sister is a Christian for 3 years before i got converted and she told me alot about him but those were merely stories of His life and His love which i didn't understand at first.I was really egoistic and very concerned about my every looks and details of how i look,how i perform in school and most of all,how everyone else sees me as a great guy and as a cool dude in school.I wanted to go for the Christian Fellowship meetings in our school before i accepted Christ but the thoughts that people will take me as a 'holy guy' and that kind of thing really scared me and my high self esteem.In other words,I could've gotten to know Jesus well much earlier.

I used to dress up real good even if i was going to get the papers from the stall nearby.That was me then... Not so long before i got saved,there's this urge to find out what is Christianity is all about and everytime i got on the internet i'll try to type christian on the search engine but i'm always in fear that my Buddhist parents will question me. I'm afraid that i need to answer to them and yes,it'll be embarassing to let your parents know that youre in search of yourself.My father is a strong Buddhist and when my sister accepted Jesus,she pratically cried for 3 nights because of what my dad did,he tortured her mentally saying bad things about the relationship she's having with God.My dad gave in anyway,knowing that she's grown up enough to make decissions.

I also had this sort of feeling in me sometimes when i'm listening to christian musics, last time some kind of unexplainable feeling and always wanting the music to end faster just because it is a Christian music.Maybe that was just the old typical and always looking at theories of life to suceed me.I used to pray to the Buddhist idols asking for something and i don't think they ever came anyway.But i admit that i was shy with God Almighty that i never thought existed before.I was shy...

2nd January 2003 was a great day..possibly the greatest day in my life,I gave my life for real to God.I thought it happened earlier but on that very day,all my doubts were gone.I prayed silently in front of my computer reading directly from the webpage ..the sinner's prayer.. i cried and I cried.I kept questioning myself, what happened?whats the big deal now? but time and time again i hear something in my head, "It's me,your God,you've accepted me finally and I'm here".

Yes no doubt the first few weeks I was shy and kept the great news to myself and to my new friends whom never knew i was a Buddhist just a day ago then.I didn't have the courage to share because i know too well that everyone will come to me and ask me why and how and why again,i have not much Christian friends then,some that i had then got mad at me for something i said.I had noone to turn to after making the biggest decission in my life and i couldn't tell my family members too,remember what happened to my sister?And remember the phrase being shy?I was alone then,all I had was the internet as my sole food-for-soul and Jesus to turn to in front of the computer nonetheless.

I can't attend the Christian Fellowship in school,I have no idea what is Christianity and the people there are lifelong Christians ,I don't belong there. But again...that was January. My walk with God was trully strengehten when the Christian Fellowship had thier annual camp,I knew i had to go.Indeed I went,for the first time in my life,I really experienced God's holy presence.I was really fired up .I LOVE JESUS.Since the camp,I've been attending the Christian Fellowship's every single meeting.I can say that I know God now.Christian songs?I can even play them on the guitar. No doubt that my walk with God is set straight and paved with super strong unbreakable metals now,but,how can I tell my family?

I need to go to church someday.I told myself once,you've got lots of time to go to church when you are out of the house.But do i really have time?Will my faith stay till then?I felt the calling just 3 days ago.God sent me a friend ,Gabriel his name,just like the one who told Mary.He told me to pray and he really enlighten me with so many truth. Now?My sister promised to call me on Saturday and she'll help me in everyway she could.Anyhow...I'm ready...Jesus is there anyway...why fear...


 

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