Date:   6/7/2006 6:59:18 AM ( 18 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=304223

I am very very grateful that I have progressed as much as I have. Every month I hit a new plateau it seems, with the non-dieoff phases getting better & better. But when the dieoff/healing crisis hits, it just completely alters my thinking. It's like, when I am feeling well, I know it's going to come eventually because my body is rebuilding itself and it is necessary, but when it actually HAPPENS, I get so hopeless and depressed and feel like dying. I think it's mainly because I think I'm going to go through this the rest of my life.

How long am I going to continue with these healing crisises?! I go through one for about a week, and then I feel better the next, then another crisis, then another week of feeling good. When I am completely healed, will I not be going through healing crisises anymore?! About 3 hours ago I was balling my eyes out, feeling hopeless and dead inside... then I performed an enema and my body feels so calm and my whole brain pattern changed. I feel not exactly great, but most definately not the way I did 3 hours ago.

I have been doing so many remedies and therapies and fasting, so I'm sure that was a big reason I felt so horrible, but it's kind of like....... okay, just stop it already. Just get out of my damn body for God's sake. I am tired of living like this.
 

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