Date:   2/27/2013 5:57:20 PM ( 11 y ago)
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Thank you for the support lakshmi :)

It has been very difficult for me to give up the vegan LIFESTYLE, although I feel much better now that I am eating meat and getting the essential nutrients that I need after all these years. Many of my so called friends ostracized me for eating meat again, claiming that there had to be another way and that I was "selling out". None of these people were as sick as I was, and I thought it was the opposite of the "compassionate" attitude that they run around trumpeting about.

There is definitely trauma between me and food. The guilt of eating meat again, the decade long obsession with "eating perfectly", and the lifelong battle with being thin. I was never anorexic, but I grew up with the school of thought that fat would make me fat, and therefore avoided it by all costs.
On top of that, I am subjected to the bullying of the vegans even here on cure zone. Makes me want to bang my head against the wall every time they hijack one of mine or my friends' threads.

I don't agree with low fat/high carb. It's my opinion, and it's based on my real life experience. I lived that way for years and it almost killed me. The body needs fats. period. No fruitatarian or vegan can convince me otherwise. I ate a very clean 80% RAW diet. I am guilty of eating soy- tofu and soy milk, but I never consumed the "vegan junk food". I ate little nuts (I have nut allergies), tons of bananas and other fruits, grains, beans, and raw veggies. Drank coconut water and kombucha tea on a regular basis. Started every morning off with a green smoothie.

I won't lie, in the beginning I felt great, but as the years went by my health began to deplete and my body was crying out for meat and fat. I refused all the way until the end, but was so incredibly ill that I reluctantly took the advice of my NB practitioner and started consuming meat and fat. Guess what? I felt better. Now I just had to tackle the mental aspect of accepting my new way of life and not beat myself up over it (still a work in progress).

Looking back, there really is quite a bit of ego involved. I always felt a bit of superiority based on my abilities to regurgitate facts about my impeccably clean diet and felt that I had much more sense and discipline than the average "barbarian". Yes, I called meat eaters barbarians for a long time. It got to the point that people got sick of hearing me beat it into the ground, and my non- vegan friends wouldn't even eat around me. Now, ironically, I am the target of the bashings and I am so regretful of the way that I acted back then.

On the other hand, alot of the Paleo people are the same! I'm not picking on vegans, the carnivores can be just as bad. When I first started eating meat again I posted in some of the Paleo forums asking for advice on how to gently break into it coming from a long time vegan diet. I had a few people respond who were helpful, but most were eager to jump up on their soapboxes and tell me how I was so wrong for so long and that no wonder why I was sick and blah blah blah. This was the last thing I needed! So yes, extreme egoism does exist on both ends of the spectrum.

In the end, I am learning to put the shame aside and reassure myself that it is not wrong to listen to my body. Hell, if I would have earlier then maybe I would not have gotten quite so ill. Who knows.

As for the GAPS diet, I am pretty much on this eating plan, minus the dairy as I am intolerant to it. I agree, it has been very therapeutic. I don't eat red meat either, because it simply doesn't agree with me.

I am glad that you found my post to be helpful. It's always good to know that there is someone else out there who is fighting the same battles :)
 

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