Date:   12/3/2012 8:27:38 PM ( 12 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=2012545

cool post blistering. but I don't see how carbohydrates fit into this lol

A certain sense of helplessness washes over us, atleast me, I think as we seem to feel almost no control over our bodies or our sense of well being. I did not like that the scale was overwhelmingly negative emotions, but maybe that is the world we live in today.

A couple things: As I get better (although I have made no progress for about 3 months now ):< ) anyways, I notice I have more emotional space. I get angrier, happier, sadder, and more hopeful/distressed then I did before. I can love now, much more so than I could before. This is well documented for heavy metal recovery, but I think applies to AF in general. The apathy is temporary, and it is not real, it is a product of fatigue of our mind/bodies, and also a coping mechanism. It will pass, I promise you this. But, it could be a blessing in disguise. We are on a long, nonlinear path, a little apathy can help one remain stable and patient. Just my 2 cents.

Also, just for fun since we broached a non-technical topic this is my recovery quote. Its on my wall.

“In the midst of hate, I found there was, within me, an invincible love. In the midst of tears, I found there was, within me, an invincible smile. In the midst of chaos, I found there was, within me, an invincible calm. I realized, through it all, that… In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer. And that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger – something better, pushing right back.”




 

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