Date:   5/12/2011 2:04:55 PM ( 14 y ago)
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Hello

Yes Skip! CAREFREE! The worst worry is what to make for dinner! What color to dye your hair next! I have been crying most of the day, wondering if and when will I get that back on a full time basis.

I so know what you mean looking at girls your age and wonder why this is happening and feel out of sorts cause their thinking is not yours. What I find the hardest is going places I have been before without symptoms and go back with them it makes me feel so sad (almost unbearable) I went to the park yesterday with my kids and hadn't been there since last summer and I just wanted to leave. Last year I was full of strength, happiness, joyful, enjoyed seeing my boys smile and have fun. I don't enjoy things like I used to. I just try to get through them especially if I am not feeling well and on my bad days I can't even do them. I am happy in the very little things I took for granted before. Like wanting to brush my hair, do my makeup, going out for coffee (by myself), going out to the barn to take care of my horses and goat. Maybe that is the point of all this. I keep saying something has to come out of this, something positive. I keep praying for a revelation in all this. God knows! I just don't and have to have faith. Thats all we can do!

I have been off work for over 3months, I want to return! On my good days I feel I could go back and then the bad days come back and wonder what am I going to do on those days? Does any of you ladies work full time? How do you handle the bad days? It took me two years to get this job, I had to do numerous testing and interviews and now I have it and can't do it! I am suppose to go back at the end of the month. This adds more anxiety cause my symptoms were the worst at work, double vision, I work with my eyes alot under fluorescent lights. I don't know if I can handle it. I can't just give it up either, this extra income could really secure my kids future. I feel like a failure at everything. This thing has taken so much away from me.

Thanks Clare for responding! How are you feeling since the detox? My nutrionist said my body isn't ready for one yet. So I am on strict diet to reduce yeast and help my bowels heal. So that isn't helping my mood either, the simple things of just eating what ever I felt like made my life simpler now on this diet I am anxious about what to eat and its not enjoyable, another joy taken away! LOL

God Bless
 

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