Date:   12/17/2010 5:29:21 PM ( 14 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1739628

you are not the only sensitive person, i loved my ex before he even arrived to see me. i guess it hurts more, knowing that we won't even have a chance to be friends. i feel like we have history together and we know one another (whether the intimacy/love relationship part didn't work or not). i guess that is why i didn't put up any boundaries with him (stupid!!!) i have been on dates, i do not compare; and yes i believe i deserve happiness and could see the goodness and respect out of other men. but, it doesn't stop the pain when i'm lying in bed at 1am and 3 am in the morining. it doesn't stop me from gazing through my pics on my phone at his smile (as if i'm sneeking). i feel so juvenile at times wondering (what is wrong with me?) i do know that he is my soulmate, just didn't expect it not to work because of this reason.
i don't even know if it would be proper for me to except him back, if he attempted to come back/get in touch with me. but, it would sure feel good if he did.
i know and believe there's someone for everyone and i have not given up on love. my heart is just not ready to share (not quite sure when it will be), i need to heal and learn what it is im going through (esp at my age)....
 

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