Date:   5/28/2010 3:10:57 PM ( 14 y ago)
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I’m sorry I’ve been M.I.A. on posts again. Life, as I’m healing more and more everyday, is heating up. I’m not at my computer a whole lot. Between IP stuff, talking to my coach, doing housework, trying to get my life back on track, I lose track of remembering to post. Incidentally, we’re leaving for our honeymoon (the real version) tomorrow morning and so, I’m already packed so I can sit here with this castor oil pack on, calming myself for tomorrow’s long flight to Hawaii – and catching up on some posts. :D

WHAT WE ADDED
I want to make mention of many things that I’ve noticed shift over the last many weeks. I’ve added local bee pollen (1 tsp, 3x/day), dried ground herbs called ‘Nerve Food’ from Dr. Christopher’s Blend, ‘Nerve Sedative’ Tincture, super therapeutic amounts of ‘Adrenal Support’, ‘Skunk Cabbage’ (nerve reparative) tincture, ‘Amla Berry’ powder (an ayurvedic herb), Acerola Cherry Powder, and the most precious herb I’ve ever come across, ‘Lady’s Slipper’.

All of these have rounded out the adrenal and nerve repair I needed. Unyquity and I have narrowed the IP focus to now work primarily on adrenal repair and nerve health. I’d gotten to a point where my weak wrists and lack of grip strength had become spasms and dropping objects. My hormone balance had also gotten to a point over the last many years whereby shortly after I finish menstruating, I go from being relatively intelligent to just short of catatonic and drooling on myself. I can’t do simple math for a week, am good for very little besides house cleaning. I cry a lot those weeks, feeling like I’m sabotaged by a hormonal cycle and adrenal fluctuations that I watched drive my mother to madness (literally).

I’m thrilled at the above prescription. It’s working tremendously well. I’d like to list some of the most miraculous changes I’ve watched occur. As my friend Kathy would say, ‘it’s when you notice the ‘gone-ness’ of something that you realize you’re better and better’. She’s right – sometimes it takes a few weeks for you to realize that something has shifted. What a wonderful blessing it is!!

RACING MIND AND FOCUS ABILITY
Even when my mind is racing now, I think 3 thoughts at once, not the average 20 I’ve stayed at pretty much my whole life. 3 thoughts at once is a miracle onto itself.


NEURO HEALTH, HAND-EYE COORDINATION, NERVE IMPULSES
I keep a cardboard blotter under my laptop on my desk. Just cut up big sheets of cardboard to keep on your desk to make notes on – that’s what I do. There’s an ‘Ask Kristi’ column and cartoons, ‘IP Post Notes’, etc. I was writing in cursive on the blotter a few weeks ago and noticed I wasn’t skipping letters. I hadn’t noticed the ‘gone-ness’ of this yet. For years (easily 5 or 6 years) I haven’t been able to write. It’s a darned good thing I type super fast because the information from my brain to my fingertips around a pen has not been right for some time. It’s been maddening. I’ve had a pattern whereby I write a few letters and skip a few letters in a word. Say I’m writing the words, ‘amino acid’, I’d write, literally, ‘amno acd’ or if I were writing the phrase ‘remember to write unyquity’, I’d write ‘rmbr t wite unquty’. For many years I’ve been inserting letters and – it caused me to just start typing more – my ego couldn’t handle looking at the chicken scratch anymore. So, I took to my blotter for these next few posts and I noticed, I was writing calmly and fluidly and got a whole list of (ironically) things that had changed with the nerve reparatives and poof – there were no missed letters and everything looked ready to hand in for a cursive grade in secondary school. (!!!!!!) I’m SO THRILLED ABOUT THIS!!!! This alone shows me that I’ve changed rapidly on a deep level that I can’t even begin to understand yet – but will. I think this is indicative of bigger changes than I can really understand!!

WRIST PAIN AND STRENGTH
My wrists are much stronger and they’re not sore or spasming. I haven’t dropped anything in a month and I ‘feel’ my wrists, hands and fingertips all the way down. No numbness, no tingling and I feel myself when I grip a glass or a pen – it’s very exciting!!

ELECTROLYTES, FINGERNAILS, BONE & NAIL HEALTH
My fingernails started to peel and trim, like a Bonzai tree in many ways, when I was like 15 or so. They didn’t grow anymore and didn’t grow, specifically, on the sides. They started lifting from the sides of the nail bed and the cuticles seem to pull back from them. The sides of the nails were very weak as a result and never grew past the cuticle bed. They’re growing and they’re strong. I’ve been filing them like once a week – and that is huge! We could definitely point to electrolyte balance and I can also say that this is indicative that the body has enough mineral balance to even look at growing nails! I’m quite sure the therapeutic amounts of Herbal Calcium tincture and BF&C tincture have a huge bit to do with my body absorbing and appropriating not only the electrolytes but Silica as well!!! (thank you Kristi, please take a bow!!!)

My fingers and toes have been sore, hurt even, at the ends for years now. It’s made no sense to me but if I push on the tips of my fingers or toes, push a toe into the floor – they’re super sore. It’s been very saddening for an artist – and I’m pleased to say that my digits are sore no more!! They feel like regular fingers and toes!!!

HEARING/LISTENING
As I said in a previous post, I’m hearing music differently. I’m hearing it more complexly, like in my freshman music appreciation course – lower, deeper levels of compositions that I don’t think I’ve heard in a decade. I’m very much looking forward to going to the symphony this summer! Oh – it’s going to be divine!!

ADRENAL RESPONSE TO EXERCISE
When I exercise now, my adrenals aren’t over-stimulated and I don’t feel like I’m going to have a panic attack anymore!!!

BREATHING/OXYGENATION
My breathing has improved dramatically. It took a few days for me to notice that I am breathing, with ease, into the lower lobes of my lungs. There is no forcing or ‘remembering’ to take a deeper breath. It’s happening automatically, like it should, and that alone is creating a huge amount of calm for me. I haven’t taken my inhaler in six months probably and that – through allergy and spring season!!

Depression AND REASON
I’m much less depressed, cyclically, than I was even a few months ago. Now, when I’m depressed, I’m able to pull myself up by my neuro-boot straps and talk to myself. I’ve felt for years, when depressed, I was looking through a screen-door to my rational mind and just not quite able to ‘get there’ and now – the screen-door has opened and I have my access back to remembering self-confidence and reason when I’m plummeting.

SLEEP REPAIR AND THE DREAM STATE
I’m sleeping more peacefully than I have since I was 20. That’s 15 years, folks. 15 years I’ve been trying different methods whether it was passionflower, visualization or art – many methods to try and calm my brain before sleep. I’ve had the hardest time quieting my mind to fall asleep that it created a situation whereby I do housework or some other quelling/completing task for many hours before bed to try and make myself feel I’ve accomplished something and am worn out enough to just pass out. Even so, it’s still taken ear plugs, crystals under my pillow and curling up tight next to the man to get me even close to calm. I have nightmares of significant historical familial value that are now starting to fade. Nightmares that have followed me through my waking hours for years after I have them. I watch my family members commit suicide and leave each other to suffer all over again, I watch my health wither in other ways, I weep by myself in dark corners, I feel unloved and alone – we’re talking REALLY visceral, VERY sad, VERY real things. These dreams have been dark in color, low lit and verrrrrrry detailed. It is a huge source of sadness for the man that I have these dreams. I’ve tapped on it, I’ve told myself I don’t have to have these tapes. And in waking life – I don’t think these things throughout the day. I’m pretty at peace with their decisions to die and how they happened (and that’s not how they happen in my dreams) and I know my health is healing rapidly in waking life. But my fear spots in my subconscious batter me nightly…until recently. I’m healing – even in my dream state. I’ve had food and laughed with my brother in my dreams. My mom came to a dinner party I was having in my dream state, I’ve laughed, I’ve cried with joy to see them. Now that you’ve choked back tears for reading this part – I’ll tell you a funnier one, how bout that? :D

In a recent dream, I was on a motorcycle. I haven’t ridden a motorcycle since I was 16 but from the age of 5 to 16, I was on one daily unless it was snowy or icy outside. I don’t know if I’m at the space yet, coordination wise, that I’d get back on a bike – but in my dream – I rocked it for all it was worth. I was on a highway, on a crotch rocket (not my style but work with me here) and I was bearing down, shifting rapidly and getting upwards of probably 100mph. Zooming in and out of cars, playing cat and mouse like I used to play with my brother as a kid. I felt the wind in my hair, blowing it crazy, the sun was beaming down and I could feel the heat from the tail pipe and the tires of cars as I wizzed in and out of traffic. Lol – and all of this seemed so reasonable. To top it all off, I was in a vintage silk Chinese coat, no less – a lovely dusty rose with muted colored embroidery of lotus flowers. It flapped in the wind behind me like a cape. And as all of this seemed perfectly reasonable…many minutes went by and another motorcycle sped up next to me. I glanced over quickly and poof – I realized my dream was getting rather silly when Angelina Jolie was racing me down a highway. I started laughing and that part of the dream ended. Yes – I even mock myself in my dream state. Lol!!! :D

To Your Health!!!!

 

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