Date:   12/31/2009 3:27:41 PM ( 15 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1547442

Thanks for your validation.  I use a meditation that is based on grounding, running energy, and activating and clearing out the chakras - while also recognizing that I am spirit and so is everyone else on the planet.  My meditation posture is sitting, hands at my side in a relaxed position, feet flat on the floor uncrossed, and turning within.  I won't go into a lot of details because I don't wish to invite invalidation if it doesn't meet the expectations of other meditators.  However, if you go to the link that I provided about a woman who was incarcerated and declared insane who healed through meditation at http://intentions.wordpress.com/about/ you will find that she uses a form of meditation in which she "melts into" herself.  That's similar to what I practice except that I allow all energies that are not me to flow down my grounding (a connection you as spirit make between your first chakra and the center of the planet).  Grounding is a flow, a dumping ground, it is not static and you will only let go of things that are blocking you.

My PTSD healing was not easy and I don't in any way want to imply that it was.  My source of pain had been there for decades and I never knew it and once I got in touch with it I denied it was there until - I began to re-experience my pain all over my body in vivid detail.  I think that anyone who knows they are dealing with PTSD knows exactly what I mean.  My body did not want to meditate.  It tried every which way to turn away from my pain but I forced myself to sit and look at what really happened in my life.  It took me a long time to actually get through it, but after a month or two of facing and admitting it, the journey became easier.  It is something that I will never forget yet there are no longer any triggers or fear or anything else associated with it other than a memory.  I counseled for about six months and never told my counselor or anyone else that I contemplated suicide.  I knew that if I did I would be incarcerated.  I also refused all offers of medication - and an offer of hypnosis from my counselor.  I learned self-hypnosis many years ago but what I've learned since then leads me to believe that it does more damage than it does good, and in the hands of the wrong person - including experienced counselors, it can cause severe problems.

My pain originated in early childhood.  We rationalize all sorts of debilitating things that happen to us in childhood because we think our world is normal, and generally it isn't.  Then when we reach adulthood we once more rationalize events in childhood as "it didn't really hurt" or "others had it worse than I did" and all sorts of excuses - anything except admitting that we/I as an individual had pain.  I am an ex-Marine front-line rifle carrying combat veteran of Korea, and later in my service time survived an airplane disaster in which the pilot was killed in the crash.  I will take both my combat and air experiences many times over rather than go through my childhood difficulties - any day.  I can relate to anyone who had abuse in childhood, either male or female.  Yes I had to deal with my military experiences too but they were much easier than the childhood experiences.

Best to you in dealing with your PTSD.

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