Date:   7/30/2009 11:27:33 AM ( 15 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1464847

My bf's been put to jail for a year. he did not obey the rule of not having a relationship with an underage, but that gurl sleeps around anyway. He helped her sort out her family problems and gave her food and took care of her when her family abused her and took her to the police station to make reports. she was the one wanted more intimate relationship with him and she admitted it!

but still, she got away with it with nothing and my bf was charged for a year sentence! he had another ex gf who supported this ex gf (let's call the abused by family one Michelle, and the latter, Amanda), Amanda supported Michelle at 1st but towards the end of the trial, she was helping my bf because she realised that she was making a mistake - Michelle LIES!

Amanda was then helping my bf and giving him support and some informations when she was not suppose to be in contact with him. In the end, only Michelle was trying to bring my bf down. I only met my bf in the midst of all these troubles (the trials went on for 2 years!). He managed to seek comfort from me after that.

Now, he's already almost finished his time. However, in the beginning of his sentence (few months down the road), he wanted me to call Amanda and get her address so he can write to her... I did it with bitterness in my heart. She didn't bother to reply or call back to give me her address anyway.

Then, today, I was talking to my bf. I told him everything that's been bothering me all these while. i can't accept that he's forgiven Amanda and wants to still keep in touch with her even when he's finished his time. He said he would definitely won't contact Michelle, but Amanda was the one who helped him thru before he met me. I was too arrogant to see that part of the detail... to me... they've put him thru all these garbage and only him and his family are suffering now, not them! why should i allow him to see her again?

but then today, when i flashed back again on everything that he's said and i've said... i see that he's got a point there where he said she supported me towards the end... i should forgive... i know i will never forget, but i should forgive just like he did... so i wont suffer so much...

and i'm really trying my best to forgive... everyday i wonder how he does it... but i just can't forgive someone who's put a nice person, who's helped her all these time into a place where he shouldn't belong...

will sombody please help me... i need to learn to forgive Amanda and stop holding back any grudges. i guess it's ok for them to talk again n stuff... but the jealousy and hatred and grudges in me just can't help myself... i'm a lost soul stuck in my own useless body! i need help!!!
 

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